Can we go through this?

#8

Pov. Lando

Loud sobs leave my lips and I squeeze my eyes shut. I pull my knees against my chest and I put my arms around them. My head hits my knees and I start coughing. The position didn't give me any air, but I don't let go. It felt like I deserved it. I don't deserve air because this was all my fault. Because of me the three of us are not cuddling in bed right now, because of me we are having a fight. Separate from each other, in our own hotel room.

It's all my fault.

I sat there for a long time. I gasped, but I let everything go. I panic when I feel a lot of  stabbing in my chest. I gasp as I grab my chest. I press on my chest and my eyes close in pain.

What is happening?

I try to inhale, but my body blocks. I have no control over it at all. The pain in my chest is getting worse and I look around me. I'm sweating a lot and it's so much warmer in the room. I feel my heart beating in my throat.

Where's my phone?

They have to come back.

It's not good, this is not good.

I get on my knees and hold on to the bed. Black spots come into my sight and I look at how badly my hands are shaking. I fall back on my ass and then it goes black.

Pain, that's what I felt when I woke up. My body hurts. I open my eyes and look around me.

I'm on the floor, why am I on the floor?

Oh...

I put my hand on my chest. I didn't feel the stabbing feeling anymore. I sit up and look around me. Max and Charles' food is still on the table. I look next to me where the bed is. I grab the bed and stand up. I sit on the bed and grab my phone. I lock my phone and I go to contacts. I look at Charles's name and I bite my lip.

Would they answer me?

Would they come?

Would they?

No,

No, they probably wouldn't.

But I clicked his name anyway and called him.

I don't know what just happened and I need them.

I stare at Charles getting a call. I put the phone to my ear and listen to it while it's ringing.

But he doesn't answer.

"Hello, this is Charles, I can't answer for a now, but leave a message after the beep."

I sigh and click away. I look for Max's name and I call him. I hear the phone ring and a second later it is silent. I look at my phone and I see his name go away.

Did he hang up?

Did he really hang up on me?

Tears welled up in my eyes again. I look at the clock. It's 9 o'clock. I sigh and I put my phone back on the bed. I get up and I clean up the food. I throw it all in the trash and then I lay out my clothes for tomorrow. I clean my teeth, wash my face and then I change and lie down in bed.

It was a restless night.

I hadn't slept a wink. Maybe a few small naps from max for half an hour but I don't remember and it doesn't feel like it.

I was glad that alarm went off, because now I had to get out of bed and I could go. I get up and take a shower. After I was done my phone rang. I felt a small hope that it's Max or Charles. But no. It was my mother. I pick up and I keep talking to her for a while before going to the track.