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'Sorry to crash whatever is going on here, but we kinda have to go and report those two, if you're ready.'

Shit. Double shit. Tripe. Fucking. Shit.

Jimin was standing right behind us, but none of us saw him. I don't know how much he heard, but he definitely heard the last part. He heard me say that I don't like him.

'Jimin-'

'You wanna or not? This is up to you.' He cut me off in almost cold tone. Shit.

I should be happy that it's like this. I tried to keep it hidden anyway to keep my friendship with him, but now that he heard me, I want the exact opposite. 

I want to tell him I lied. I want to tell him that I'm so madly in love with him that my heart feels like exploding when he just looks at me. I want him to hold me like he did yesterday, and I want him to feel the same. I want him. But I just fucked it up.

'Report what?' Hobi asks him

'We caught the people who were messing with her locker for the last year.' Jimin replied to him, his eyes still locked into mine

'Shit, really?! Who was it?!'

'It was Binna and Minyu.' Tzuna answered him, her voice quiet and fragile. Everyone is more than aware of the awkwardness, and there is not a single thing we can do about it.

'Ye-yeah. We should- We should do that.' I stuttered, getting even my foot stuck on the bottom of the bench from the nervousness as I tried to get up, and almost ended on my face

Usually, he would most likely help me if I stumbled, but at the moment he just looked at me with some weird expression that I can't really read, not moving a muscle.

'Slow down. You're gonna fall on your face.' Tzuna was the one who caught me before I tripped over

'Yeah. Sorry. I got stuck.' I mumble, afraid to look into his eyes

Jimin didn't say anything, but he did walk a bit ahead of us, and I could more than feel Tzuna and Hobi, who decided to join for some reason, staring at me and him.

'You should probably be the one to knock.' Tzuna said to me as we were walking towards the principal's office

'Sure.' I just nodded, agreeing. Jimin moved aside without even so much as looking at me, letting me reach the door before him. Well, that feels shit.

I took a deep breath and knocked a few times before the voice inside told me to come in.

'Good morning, Mr.Woojun. Do you have a minute?'

A man in his 50s with almost got grey hair and a fancy suit was sitting behind his big, wooden desk, apparently dealing with some paperwork.

'Miss Maddox. Miss Kim. Please, come in. Take a seat.' He smiled, gesturing to the chair for me and Tzuna who got in with me.

I walked in, softly closing the door behind me and leaving Jimin and Hobi outside.

'What can I help you with?' He put down his papers and focused on me

JIMIN POV

She went in there with Tzuna, while me and Hobi stayed outside. I'm just here in case she needs more witnesses. Not that that's what I'm thinking about right now.

I heard what she said earlier, and it hurt. It hurt a lot more than I thought it would. I knew that she didn't see me that way, but I didn't realize that I hoped a bit much.

I guess I'm just so in love with her that I created an entire fake scenario in my head where she feels at least something for me, but that's on me. I read into it, thinking that all those times she hugged me or even kissed me meant more than they did. I'm an idiot.

'Hey, man, um...' Hobi was kind of stumbling over his words, looking for them. 'Are you okay? I mean, you heard-'

'It's not something that I didn't know, so don't worry about it.'

'No, listen. I-'

'Hobi, man, honestly, don't even. She doesn't like me. It's plain and simple. It's not rocket science, and I won't die because of it. It's fine.'

Except I feel like dying. Or at least like I'm being repeatedly kicked in the chest. I've never been in love before. I never had such strong feelings for someone, and I never wanted to be so close to anyone before. And to think that the person I love doesn't want anything to do with me in that way hurts.

'Do you ever listen?!' He barely let me finish. 'I'm trying to tell you that she's lying.'

'I heard her loud and clear.'

'My god, you are such an idiot, I swear.' He rubbed his eyes, frustrated to the max. 'She was uncomfortable with the questions, so she lied. Did you not see her face? She was bright red.'

'I don't need the fake pity and comfort. And I told you before to leave her alone, but you just don't fucking listen.'

In a way, he did me a favour. If I didn't hear her, I'd be left wondering for who knows how long. This way, I know exactly where I stand. She sees me as a friend and nothing more.
Problem is that I'm hurt at the moment, and I know that I need to pull myself away from her, and that hurts even more.

I love every moment that I'm with her. Going home or sitting together in class. I love the way she is with Yujin. She treats him like he's her own brother. The way she smiles makes my entire day so much better. Her voice, her breathtaking face, her laughter, her incredible eyes... all those things make me want to burst. Every little thing she does makes my heart feel like it's about to explode. And when I hold her, I have to fight the urge to do more every single time.

But that has to stop, so I can save myself the pain and suffering. And she doesn't need someone pinning over her either.

'Fine, don't listen. Be a stubborn mule as always. But, I'm telling you, she lied. That girl likes you.'

I was about to argue back, but the doors from the office opened, and both of them walked out.

She looked at me and then looked down straight away, obviously avoiding looking at me. I guess this is where it gets awkward and I make her uncomfortable.

'And?' Hobi asked them

'They'll be brought in later and disciplined.' She answered in a tiny voice, purposely letting her blonde hair fall down like a curtain to hide her face

Hobi whispered something to Tzuna, and she just nodded, linking her arm with his.
'We gotta go. See you later.'

They were obviously running away from us, giving us space. The exact last thing we need right now.

'Thanks. For coming along.' Her voice is so quiet that I can barely hear her, and her eyes are averting more than looking at me

'Sure. Anytime.'

The more I look at her, the more I want to hug her and kiss her until either of us can't breathe anymore. I need to get myself out of here.

'Umm.. about earlier-'

'Don't worry about it. It's just Hobi being an idiot. All good.' I wish that's what I said. Play it off. But instead, I said this.

'Never heard a thing.' 

And then I simply walked away, mentally slapping myself to the point I got a headache, and all I could hear was her sweet voice calling my name, but I just couldn't turn and go to her. I need to get far away. And fast.