Chapter 12: Fractures forming

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Maxine's panicked screams tore through the air, shattering the tense silence that had enveloped us. "Danny! Where are you?" she cried, her voice laced with desperation as she searched every corner of the house. The fear that had gripped her was palpable, spreading like wildfire as we all joined the frantic search.

My heart raced as we scoured each room, calling out Danny's name, our voices a chorus of concern. Another streak of blood on the wall, a grim trail. Maxine's scream reverberated through the air, her legs giving way beneath her as she collapsed to the floor in a heap.

Vincent was by her side in an instant, his strong presence a reassuring anchor amidst the chaos. He cradled Maxine, his voice a steady murmur as he tried to calm her trembling form. The rest of us remained frozen, the gravity of the situation crashing down on us.

Just as panic threatened to consume us, a voice sliced through the turmoil. "I found him!" Francine's shout was a beacon of hope, drawing us to a corner of the room where Danny crouched, knife in hand, his face a mask of shock and terror.

"Daniel!" I gasped, my heart aching at the sight of him. His wound was open, blood staining his shirt, his eyes wide with a mixture of pain and disbelief.

"Danny, are you okay?" Maxine's voice trembled as she struggled to her feet, Vincent's arm still wrapped protectively around her. 

Danny's voice shook as he spoke, his words rushed and fragmented. "The killer... still here... stabbed your dad."

Vincent's brow furrowed, his gaze intense. "Are you sure? Did you see who it was?"

Danny's breaths came in ragged bursts as he nodded, his grip on the ornamental knife tightening. "I... I saw them. I panicked, grabbed the knife... I stabbed them, Vincent."

The room fell into a heavy silence, each of us processing Danny's words. I could feel the weight of everyone's gaze on me, their expectations hanging in the air. I wanted to believe him, to trust that he had defended himself and my father. But doubt gnawed at the edges of my mind, fueled by Lydia's cautious stare.

"Danny, we need to find this person," Vincent declared, his voice a mix of determination and concern. 

"We can't stay here. It's not safe," Lydia added, her green eyes fixed on Danny and me. The gaze that looked at me was cold and piercing. It was familiar almost. Almost like the stares that haunted me.

Maxine's grip on Vincent tightened, her voice barely above a whisper. "We have to make sure Danny's okay."

Vincent nodded, his gaze flickering to me. "Alaine, stay with your mother. We'll search the house and make sure it's clear."

I numbly watched as they left the room, the weight of the situation settling over me like a suffocating shroud. I could hear the sounds of their footsteps and murmured voices as they combed through the house, each moment stretching into eternity.

The reality of it all finally hit me, and I couldn't hold back the flood of emotions any longer. I made my way back down to the lawn, my steps unsteady as I approached my mother. She sat there, broken and inconsolable, her cries echoing in the still night air.

"Mommy," I choked out, my voice trembling as tears streamed down my face.

She looked up at me, her eyes a reflection of profound grief and loss. I sank to my knees beside her, wrapping my arms around her trembling form. My own sobs mingled with hers, the weight of the tragedy crashing down upon us.

Time seemed to blur as we clung to each other, lost in a sea of sorrow. The others returned, their expressions solemn as they joined us, forming a circle of support around me and my mother.

Vincent's hand landed gently on my shoulder, his voice soothing as he spoke. "Alaine, we'll get through this together."

Lydia's gaze softened, her usual walls momentarily crumbling as she knelt beside me. Her touch on my hand was gentle. "We're here for you, Alaine."

Maxine and Danny exchanged a look. The group's presence was a reminder that I wasn't alone. At least that was what it should have felt like.  But I felt more alone than ever.

The night stretched out like a never-ending nightmare, and I felt like I was drowning in this overwhelming sense of disbelief. My dad was gone – just like that. It felt like the world had spun off its axis, and I was left clinging to the edge, desperately trying to hold on.

Sitting there with my mom, tears streaming down our faces, I wanted to scream, to let out all the pain and confusion that was swirling inside me. But it was like the words were caught in my throat, trapped by this heavy weight that pressed down on my chest.

Memories of my dad flickered through my mind – the way he'd switch from being strict to kind, the nights where his anger would explode into something terrifying. It was like reliving a twisted reel of moments that I could never make sense of. 

On my 7th birthday, his reaction to me wearing my mother's makeup left a far redder mark than the blush did. On my 12th birthday, he gifted me a bike that he taught me how to ride. Nights I couldn't sleep I'd get kicked till I pissed myself instead of tucked in. But when I started my first period he bought me tampons and we had family movie nights to help me get through it. How could someone be both loving and cruel at the same time?

Now he was gone, and it felt like the ground had been ripped out from under me. I should be feeling something – anger, relief, sadness – but instead, I was just numb. It was like I was standing on the edge of this deep, dark abyss, and I couldn't even bring myself to look down.

And then there was Maxine, holding onto Danny like he was her lifeline. I get it, he's hurt, and she's worried sick. But every touch, every glance they shared, it was like a punch to the gut. I wanted to scream at them, to make them see how selfish they were being, how their little moment of comfort was like a knife twisting in my heart.

Lydia was there too, her gaze like ice one moment and then warm the next. I couldn't figure her out, and that look in her eyes, it was hauntingly familiar. It was like I'd seen it before in the darkest corners of my memories, and it sent shivers down my spine. She didn't focus on anything but me since we got back to the backyard. Her hand was gripping mine tightly. I realized a lot later that it was because of how badly I was shaking. I didn't understand her kindness. It should have been something Maxine should do, her being my best friend and all. But here was this girl, aloof and icy, being warmer than the sun at the time when I was most vulnerable. The tears weld up in my eyes, and as she noticed, she pulled me tightly into her chest. Her long black streaked hair tangled with mine as she held me close. I erupted into uncontrollable sobs and shakes. She said nothing.

As my friends gathered around, trying to offer words of solace, it was like their voices were coming from a distance. I was trapped in this whirlwind of emotions that threatened to consume me, and I was barely holding on. Their support should have been a lifeline, but it was like I was slipping through their fingers, disconnected from everything and everyone.

The night dragged on, and I watched as the first light of dawn broke through the darkness. It was a cruel reminder that life goes on, even in the midst of tragedy. I knew we had a long road ahead, one filled with more pain and secrets, and I couldn't help but wonder if we'd ever find our way through.

For now, all I could do was hold onto my friends, even as I felt myself unraveling. The emotions were right there, bubbling just beneath the surface, threatening to burst forth. But I kept them in check, because if I let them out, if I let myself feel everything, I was afraid I might never be able to put the pieces back together again.

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