Hate to Love You (gxg)

Part 20

TW: This part discusses sexual assault

How the fuck am I going to wait almost two weeks to see Jameson?

And how is it going to be when I do see her?

I could not stop thinking about those two things.

I was upset. Really fucking upset about Jameson telling me to basically forget about the kiss.

I can't.

The only one whom I once again told about it was Amelia.

The whole week after, I felt numb. The days were just blending together, and even when I tried to tell myself that Jameson didn't matter- I couldn't bring myself to believe it.

I told Amelia about what happened that Tuesday afterwards- when I was helping her with some Chemistry homework in the library.

She listened as I told her about the conversation and she said, "Jameson is impossible. Right when I start to think she's not terrible, she proves me wrong."

"I hate that this is bothering me so much." I said, "We shared one kiss. Yet I can't help but to feel really upset."

"There's no rule on how you should or should not be feeling." Amelia said, "It's upsetting. She gave you a little taste of what could have been, and then ripped that away from you."

"I need to somehow forget about her. Pretend it never happened as she can so easily do. How the hell am I supposed to do that with her as my partner?" I groaned.

"We will figure it out, Flora." Amelia said, "I'm here for you. I promise. And I'll plan something fun for us to do this weekend."

I gave Amelia a grateful smile, "Thank you. I appreciate it."

"And you're sure you don't want to tell Bridgette or Leighton about this?" Amelia asked me.

"Not yet." I said, "I will. But you're the only person I want to talk about it with."

The next day, Amelia told me that she was meeting Johanna at a restaurant near us on Friday night called The Cardinal.

"Come with me." she said, "Johanna won't mind at all."

"Are you sure?" I asked Amelia, "I don't want to crash your date."

"It's totally fine." Amelia said, "Think of it as you just spending time with your friends."

"Okay." I said, "Thank you, Amelia."

It worked out well because Leighton was going off campus that weekend to see her parents. She seemed to be more homesick since getting back from Winter break.

Bridgette has started talking, flirtatiously, to a girl that lived on the first floor, Devon Rhoades, and she was going to be hanging out with her- in her dorm room.

"Have fun." I said to Bridgette before she left.

"I'm sure I will." she said, with a wink.

Amelia and I got ready together, and we unintentionally matched- both wearing black pants and jean jackets.

"Twinning!" she said, and then she paused and said, "Sorry. I don't want to bring up anything with your sister."

"It's okay, Amelia!" I reassured her, "My mind didn't even go there."

Amelia and I walked to The Cardinal, arm in arm, to stay warm. It was about a 12-minute walk into the village to go to the restaurant, and when we got there, Johanna was already at a booth. She smiled and waved us over.