accident | bluelock chatfic

034

"can we talk?"

yoichi's heart dropped as he heard the words that he's awaited for so long, but not knowing what was going to come with it, whether it was negative or positive, made him nervous.

"yeah.." he almost whispered, getting up from his chair. his legs suddenly felt like jelly, head spinning as he walked over to his bed. you patted the bed next to you for him to take the side of the bed that wasnt against the wall.

"so.." you sighed, not knowing where to start as he sat on the bed, back against the pillows and headboard beside you.

"im guessing you wanna like.. end things and stay friends because you lost feelings," he blurted out, looking ahead of him.

"no, no way. thats not what i was gonna say," you chuckled, "listen yoi,

"i do like you, actually, fuck it, i love you, yoichi."

his eyes widened as he turned toward you, "like love love? not the friendly way we've been saying all these years?"

"yes, 'ichi."

"deadass?"

"deadass."

"wait then.. are you still gonna go out with sae..?" he asked, big eyes filled with worry.

"ill see what happens.. he said he knew that i was gonna end up with you in the end so.." you shrugged, "but we arent done here, yoichi."

"i know.."

"if things were as they were before bluelock, i know we wouldve been in a relationship already, a romantic one," his face perked up with that sentence, dissolving into a sad expression. he was about to part his lips to speak but you continued,

"in the beginning of bluelock, i didnt wanna do long distance while you had no way of contacting me; and you havent told me how long this is gonna go on for.."

"i dont have a definite answer for that, but i dont wanna disrespect your wishes," he bit his bottom lip, chest becoming heavier as the conversation went on.

"but its not like the before," you smiled, catching his attention, "as long as you can dedicate at least a few hours of facetiming each day, then it wouldnt be so bad, right?"

"it wouldnt be bad communication wise.." he laid on your chest, nuzzling into the crook of your neck and draping an arm over you, "but id hate not being able to feel you like this."

"i know.. but we made it through the first time, right?" you held him close, "we can just do.. what we did that one time.." your face heated up of the memory.

"i dont mind.." he started placing kisses on your exposed neck, "just gotta make sure i make the most of the time we have together."

"yoichi.. what are we?" his movements stopped, plopping his head back on your chest and letting out a heavy sigh.

"i just want you to be mine."

a smile crept up on your face as your manicured nails scratched his scalp, earning a whine from him, "but i dont wanna jump into a relationship with you immediately," he mumbled, senses overwhelmed by the tingles he was feeling.

"then what do you want?" you scrunched up your face.

"i wanna take you on real dates, buy you things, ask you out the right way.. ya know?" you felt him smile against your chest.

"oh, i aint know you was all about that," you giggled, "but i want a label on us."

"exclusive? not dating but not talking to anyone else?"