TW HOMOPHOBIA, SELF HARM, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS/TALK, ABUSE
Jisung entered his house still on a high from the night's events. He came in the door grinning like a mad man, forgetting everything that was wrong in his life - Minho was the only person that could do that for him.
That was until he noticed his Dad sitting on sofa glaring at him.
"I saw you getting dropped off by a boy" Jisung's Dad spat "Is he your boyfriend you dirty faggot"
"No son of mine will be gay" he said the words with such hate and disdain.
"MINHO'S NOT MY BOYFRIEND" Jisung cried
But that was all Jisung managed to get out before his father's hand came down on him; slaping him across the face, kicking him in the stomach.
Jisung cried out but no one could help him, his Dad had been abusive ever since Jisung had come out to him at 13 and no one had ever come to his aid.
His Dad threw him to the ground "why don't you just kill yourself already you fag"
Jisung ran up the stairs tears streaming down his red face, bruises began to plume on his skin creating a morbid painting on his body.
He locked himself in the bathroom just sitting, crying to himself. thoughts began to race through his head
"Jisung why don't you just kill yourself already"
"what's the point of you living you're just a disgusting homo"
"I should just end it right now"
He pulled out the blade that he kept in his bathroom cabinet, his Dad probably knew about it but why would he care.
He began to cut
slitting all the way down his thighs up to his hips, from his wrists to his elbows.
he'd have to wear long trousers and sleeves tomorrow.
Jisung treated self harm like a release, a release from everything going on in his life.
He believed that he deserved to feel pain but was to afraid to kill himself.
He got into the shower, not wanting to get blood on the furniture and because he deserved the agonising sting that came with the hot water hitting the fresh cuts.
Whilst he stood in the shower he began to think again
"you're not worth it Jisung"
"The only reason Minho's friends with you is to make his life easier"
He got out the shower, the world began to spin, before he blacked out he managed to reach his bedroom - passing out on his bed.
Bleeding out onto the bed in his unconsciousness.
A/N this was a really heavy chapter sorry guys- I want this book to be mainly fluff but I had to put a little bit of angst in there to keep it interesting, sorry Jisung. Sorry it's such a short chapter as well.
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