- You can start John.
- Hi, my name is Mr Jack. Some people call me John, it's easier i think. I never wanted to be an actor, you know. I always wanted to be at this side of the stage. I want to see the world in my vision, choosing costumes, setting up the stages, prepare my staff and find my actors. Pick them up from their own houses and scatter them on the stage and shout, Act! Act in my world, act in my imagination, act in my play! I preciesely never wanted to be a director, you know, i always wanted to write a play. See my characters on the humans, on the stage, see to how they find a body, a voice, a costume, a soul. See to how they become alive. But i could never manage. What's wrong to being an actor? Let me tell you that, there is a saying in my country about them, "there is a little crack in their brains" or let's just say a deep hole. If you look into that deep hole, you will see a little boy. A little boy who never grows up, a little boy who has been raped, kidnapped, stabbed by knives, shot by guns, hit by sticks, kicked by boots. When i've been first raped, i thought that was the end of my life but then 2nd time and 3rd time, you're feeling nothing in the end, nothing at all, you get used to it. I never wanted to be an actor, they pushed me in, they put pressure on me. Do this, do that, do it do it! Well, they're not alive anymore, i killed them all. 1st Mr. Brown, everytime he shouted "don't do it, don't do it" i stabbed him on his heart, until he dies, again and again. 2nd Mrs. Jones, she shouted for help while i was choking her with my hands, she didn't noticed that i was the only one who is around, she didn't noticed that i was the only one who could help her. 3rd i literally didn't kill him, we were on one of the huge , big, tall buildings, ahh i hate them, Birmingham. I only told him that i was going to kill him and he jumped out. As i told you i literally didn't kill him. I'm not murderer. J'edeste la vie, ce'est assez. Travailler, j'oublie, le vacance, j'oublie, manger, boire, devoir, pourvoir, partir, dormir, sortir, finir! L'amour.. Je s'oublie. This is the end. At least i tried. Goodbye cruel world, you never deserved me.
-What are you doin?
- I'm killing myself.
- Yourself, yourself now? All the things that you've done to me, it's yourself now!
- Yes it was always me, who do you think you are?
-No, i'm not gonna kill myself because of your selfishness.
-Selfish who you are calling selfish? Everytime i need you, you weren't there, you always wanted all the roles, jobs, girls, boys, cars, houses, you wanted all the world, now you're calling me a selfish, when i call you for Mr Brown, you disappeared! Now who is selfish?
- Murderer! How could you expect me to come with you! You are criminal bastard!
- As coward as you are!
- All these murdering, you did it on your own, i wasn't even with you. Nothing happened to you, you've never been raped, beaten, stabbed, shot! You told to the people like all happened to you! Get me down prick!
- I won't get me down.
- Get out of my head! Get the fuck out!
- Is this what you really want Johnny?
-Yes, yes , it is.. Just stay away and stop calling me fucking Johnny!
- Allright John, whenever you need me i'm just a second behind from you, whenever you need me, whenever you want to do it again, i'm allways here to help you.
- Get off!
- Allright John allright, take care.
- I will be fine, you do not worry about me. Just get off! I'm so sorry about him, this pathetic thing, i don't even know what to say, it's just, it's just, my name is John and i always wanted to be an actor. Curtains!
By the time he finished his acting, they shouted:
- Congratulations Mr John, you got the role. The role of your life.
