My love

18

Omniscient

"Ya momma should've swallowed, your so fucking annoying man!" Onika shook as her father spoke to her.

She continued to play on her toy xylophone trying to block out the overbearing voice. This only created more frustration in Robert as he tried to speak.

He balled up his fist and punched the toy breaking it in half. He paused and looked at onikas scared face, he twisted his mouth and ran his fingers over his knuckles.

Punch after punch he continued breaking the toy until it was demolished and unrecognized.

Onika sniffled quietly as the notes could be heard every collision. All she could do was sit there hoping he wouldn't hit her next.

"Look at what you made me do bitch, get the fuck up and clean this shit!" She jumped up and got the broom sweeping everything in a pile. She swept up the colorful pieces in the dust pan and took it to the garbage.

She then sat in the same spot she sat in just this time no toy.

She waited until her mom got home from work, even then she wasn't safe. He had hundreds of movies to watch and knowing onika was in the living room and she wouldn't move, he turned on the scariest ones.

She shook and cried silently as the tv was so loud she could hear all the screams, all the bloods splatters, all the killers words and it haunted her.

She imagined Robert as the killer, killing her one day over the stupidest thing. She curled up into a ball and fell asleep with those images playing in her head.

When she woke up she was in her Cinderella bed. Her mom was tapping her and whispering for her to wake up.

"Hey baby, dinners ready!" She turned over to see her moms small smile. It was the only size smile her mom could form as she came home to her daughter asleep on the floor with tear stains and metal xylophone pieces around her and in the trash.

Her and Robert had a screaming match before so she wore a turtle neck before going in front of the eyes of onika.

"Ok baby we'll slip your shoes on and come into the kitchen ok?" Onika nodded rubbing her eyes.

She stood up a couple minutes later and put her fuzzy Elmo slippers on, don't get it confused with her favorite tinker bell slippers. Everything she wanted to keep she keeps in her room away from her father.

It's sad that she didn't have to be told that either.

Onikas POV

I jumped up gasping for air. I clutched my chest knowing it was beating like crazy.

I looked over at the clock on our nightstand and it said :  3:07 am.

I rolled my eyes as I tried to control my breathing.

Beyonce was still sleeping so I didn't wanna wake her. I laid back in my pillow rubbing my temples as I just recalled one of the most traumatizing days of my life.

I looked at the tv hearing screaming and noticed it was the same movie Robert put on when I was on the floor that day. Instant fear moved over me and I began to cry trying to turn it off.

I sobbed in my knees as vision of him slaughtering me popped up just like then.

"Oni? Baby are you ok?" Beyonce whispered trying to keep her eyes open.

"Yeah I'm fine hey go back to sleep" I turned my head so she wouldn't see me at my lowest AGAIN.

She sat up and crossed her legs and in one swoop she lifted me and placed me in her lap. I instantly laid my head in her neck starting to ball.

" you had another nightmare baby?" She whispered in my ear. I nodded slowly and she hugged me tighter.

"You wanna talk about it?" She whispered again.

I shook my head no very fast as I didn't even wanna think about what I saw. She laid back down in the bed with me in her arms and rubbed my back knowing that how's I go to sleep fast.

She started to sing to me, the first song she every wrote and I smiled. I know that Beyonce would never be Robert, I would never be Robert, and zaya will never be that little onika sweeping up her own broken toy.

I feel so much comfort in Beyonce, it's to the point where I trust her with my entire life.

Before I could go to sleep she started to sing a different tune and it made my ears focus. It was a little faster than "Blue", but still slow and sensual.

"Let's make love in the summer time yeah
On the sands, beach sands make plans
To be in each other's arms...
I wanna drown in the depth of you, yeah, yeah
When the waters so blue"

I nuzzled my face into her neck and I started to kiss lightly in her vocal cords feeling the vibrations on my lips.

"I need to take my time , oh yeah
Show you something real
So real
I want you to come inside right now
So you know just how I feel
How I feel"

I brought my hand up to her face rubbing her cheek and feeling all her Beauty marks evenly distributed along her face and neck. I felt her hands rise higher and hold me tighter.

"We never been this far from the shore
We might not ever go back anymore
Got you all in your emotions, hit you with the force then
Tell me your desires, I won't ever tire
You rather play the game than to throw the fight
Girl you know that ain't right"

I kissed down her jaw sensually and softly and brought my lips back up to her ear placing it on every inch.

Her voice boomed in my ear, as my moist lips boomed in hers. I wasn't looking for anything... just for her to know I love her.

I then wrapped my arms around her as she finished her song and I felt her smile curl up on her face.

"I love your song baby" I whispered In her ear. I felt her smile grow bigger as she hugged me tighter.

"Thank you. I wrote it about you and me." I internally melted, it was a returning feeling because almost all her songs are written about me so it added on to the butterflies.

" I love you Beyonce" I whispered again. " I love you more onika. You wanna hear it again so you can go to sleep?" I kissed her one more time on the lips and I laid back into her neck awaiting her beautiful voice.

This mine and mine only.