My 12 Older brothers

Realization, Attitude & Trouble Part 1

Natalia pov:

On the way there we stopped by McDonald's and then on the way to the mall Matthew got a call " Hello?" Matthew asked

"Hey Mat, I just dropped Cole off to some friends house on the way back can you pick him up" Noah said on the other end of the phone

"Yeah sure no problem" Matthew said while keeping his eyes on the road.

Then they said something in Spanish, I know Spanish but mostly Italian I am not fluent in Spanish so it can be difficult but I'm fluent in Italian.

"Nat, Make sure you download that app I talked to you about earlier the one that will track your period" Matthew said with a small chuckle

"What's so funny? I asked squinting my eyes at him

"Nothing just your growing up so fast, I remember when you were 5 and were learning how to play the piano, my ears hurt for days" Matthew said chuckling still

"Hey! I mean at least I can play now". I said giggling a little

"Yea at least you can now" Matthew says but stopped laughing an paused... then said " Hey principessa, why did you stop? He says in a concerned tone.

I haven't played the piano in years and not because I don't want to I simply just can't, my mind says no but my heart says yes. I love singing but my brothers don't know I can sing and I didn't even know I could sing till a few months ago. But playing the piano without my mother feels wrong.. that's why it's just sitting in my room with a blanket over it.

"Well ummm... I don't know it just feels so wrong playing it" I said quietly but loud enough from him to hear.

"Mmhm he said and then said " principessa Why does it feel wrong? Don't you love playing the piano.

"I-I Do but it's just it feels weird without mom" I said whispering the word mom.

There was a brief moment of silence.

Then Matthew spoke again " principessa .... We know you miss mom and dad we all do but... he paused and then continued "it's been 8 years do you think that mom would be happy that your still not playing the piano?" He asked in a soft and gentle tone almost comforting.

I paused before I spoke. I never thought about it like that... "N-No I didn't think about it like that until now... I said my voice breaking because I was about to cry. God I hate crying! But I can't help it I don't know why.

With that a tear fell down my face. As I turnt my head away to look out the window.

"Principessa don't cry, shhhhhh shhh" Matthew said as he put his hand on my thigh rubbing his thumb against it comforting me."I-I'm sorry" I say as tears fall down my face

"perché ti stai scusando?" Matthew asked confused and concerned?(Which means: Why are you apologizing)

"perché sono qui che piango senza motivo! sono così stupido mi dispiace" I said (Which means:because I'm here crying for no reason! i'm so stupid i'm sorry)

With that Matthew flicked my leg not enough to hurt just to get my attention and then spoke " Nat you don't need to be apologizing for crying okay.. he paused and continued " There is nothing wrong with crying". "The reason I flicked you is because your not stupid principessa your everything but stupid! " Your smart, Your Kind , Your bellissima(Extremely beautiful) and I don't want to hear you talk down about yourself or anyone else again do you hear me"? Matthew said in a gentle but stern tone so I know he wasn't mad but wasn't joking either .

"Yes" I said no longer crying and wiping my tears.

Then we arrived at the mall. We went to all different stores and I got very cute school supplies since we are "wealthy" my brothers like to call it but I know where rich but I ain't spoiled brat or anything so I really don't mind it. If they say no to something it's not that's all.