Danganronpa Ultra Despair Hagakure

Chapter 5 [Hagakure Yasuhiro (4)]

After lying down on the ground and getting my breathing back to normal, I gave Kanon-cchi’s leg some first aid. Well, when I say “first aid”, I just mean I tied my shirttails around the base of her leg, but at the very least, I stopped the bleeding for the time being.

“Not bad, Hagakure, I can walk all around like this now!”

“That’s not me being amazing, that’s just your body being way too robust, Kanon-cchi…”

And anyway, more importantly–“So, in the end, what’s your deal…?”

“My deal?”

“I mean, I thought you were trying to kill me, but then now you tried to sacrifice yourself to save me and stuff…” Women are as fickle as April weather–but a saying like that still doesn’t cover all of this. Overcoming hardships together or whatever might kinda lead to an atmosphere of satisfaction–no, that already really was what was happening–but without knowing Kanon-cchi’s true intentions, I couldn’t let go of that nagging feeling wrapped around my heart.

As I tensed up again, Kanon-cchi said, “Why did I save you–? About that, I can’t really say anything except that I thought I didn’t want you to die after all… But, I’m not lying about my feelings, okay? You’re not someone I want to kill anymore, Hagakure.”

Ohhhhh, I see. Well that’s good then.

I ended up relaxing my shoulders, but wait.

“…You say I’M not someone you want to kill anymore, but does that mean you still plan on getting your revenge on the other members of the Future Foundation?”

…Do you still plan on strangling them to death with those thin fingers of yours, like you tried to do to me?

“Well obviously. They got the person I like killed. There’s no way I wouldn’t get revenge.”

“…”

From my point of view, Kanon-cchi’s murderous intent still wasn’t anything but a huge misunderstanding–but it’s not like I didn’t feel any sympathy for her.

Kanon-cchi was another victim of the School Life of Mutual Killing, just like us. If A Certain Somebody didn’t plot A Certain Something, Kanon-cchi’s smile might be much more straightforward. But just that alone isn’t enough reason to get revenge on the Future Foundation…

“…”

I let the silence hang between us until Kanon-cchi continued, “But…But, even though I can’t forgive you guys, because I think if you had been a little smarter, then maybe Leon-oniichan wouldn’t have had to die–” I heard her swallow. “…Maybe I don’t have the right to get revenge in the first place?”

“What’s this all of a sudden… Don’t tell me you’re plotting something else…”

“No, that’s not it–” For some reason, she seemed kinda embarrassed as she continued. “When I threw that crystal ball at Kotoko-chan, it was like I could see my life flashing before my eyes, and I remembered a lot of things about Leon-oniichan, but then I thought… How did Leon-oniichan even feel about me? If he didn’t really think anything of me, if I say I’m plotting to avenge him, it just seems kind of pointless…Onii-chan would probably think of it as an unwelcome favor… I’d seem like a total stalker, wouldn’t I?” She looked awkward as she spoke, almost as if she were joking, but her face was bright red.

I could tell that wasn’t a joke just now. If that’s the case–well, it wasn’t like that, but I told the truth in return. “Kuwata-cchi thought of you as someone important to him, Kanon-cchi.”

The muscles in her face stiffened into a grimace. “…I don’t know if you’re trying to make me feel better or what, but don’t just say something because you think it’s the right thing to say.”