Frayed Thoughts

The truth

The first thing Evelyn felt when she woke up was the massive banging that seemed to be happening in her head, she opened her eyes and saw her father sitting on the chair close to the bed seemingly lost in thoughts
"The doctor said it would go away soon"he said passing her a glass of water "the headaches" Evelyn took it from him took a sip before returning it the cup back to him.
   " You  hate me" Evelyn was glad it was a statement rather than a question cause her new faith preached against lying and she didn't even have a reason to lie
"I love your mum you know" he turned giving her a bittersweet smile.
" She was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and I was lucky enough to marry her." Evelyn rolled her eyes, she wasn't ready infact too sick to listen to lies.
" I am not your father you know?!" He continued and Evelyn was not shocked, everything that had happened to her from her childhood pretty much proved that.
   "I was so happy when you came into the world" he smiled as if remembering old memories. The way your toothless smile would light up the room

       Luke

So he told her everything, from Helen's betrayal to how their marriage failed due to his neglect, how they came back again and the eventual destruction, the empty husk his marriage became, looking only good for the photo and nothing else. Their agreement to send her to aunt Simi because of fear it would affect her childhood. Luke told her everything with tears streaming down both their faces for the first time in years Luke spilled it all to someone.
His fears, insecurities, failures. All of them
" I heard you when you cried that night I was at the other door, I might not love you as much as I would have done if you were my daughter but I did love you until you took your mom" Evelyn looked up shocked
  " She had cancer and had issues with her heart too, the doctor felt she could have gotten better but having to face her daughter who she loved so much telling her about hate it broke her, she just couldn't deal with it. I only found out on her death bed she had cancer. She wanted to hide it from me. Thought if she divorced me and moved far away I wouldn't have to deal with fear of loosing my wife at anytime and you, your mother." He sniffed
" But with how adamant I was on making the marriage work and do you know what she told me on her bed?!" Like faced Evelyn, a smile on his face. She has never seen a man so weak and broken, it was like he was looking back in time." She told me she loved me!" His smile was big now like a kid who got what he wanted for Christmas." But Helen?"he said with a sad shake of his head" Helen chained me, I couldn't kill myself as long as you lived,I was suppose to watch over you, even if I had come to hate you for taking my wife for destroying my marriage?!"he screamed." If she never had you, I wouldn't have left the first time maybe then Helen would have told me she had cancer, she would have trusted me!" He took a deep breath." And when you told her those words and broke her heart but Helen lied, she knew how much I loved her and tricked me into staying and watching over you. How is that fair!" He paused before facing her again, Evelyn felt he had mental issues from grief " so that's why you thought it best to kill me?" She asked, her heart was calm, a little too calm that she thought unusual like someone else was using her body. " No" he answered while shaking his head"I will never do that if I was sober, I hate you so much that I would like to do it but Helen she wouldn't have wanted that but a part of me just thought if you died I won't have any obligation and no other reason to stay alive" Evelyn realized how similar the two of them were, they had allied grief to fester so much that it had destroyed their lives and for the first time, she felt pity for him at least she wasn't so far gone and now had met some one special." I know you didn't ask" she looked at him with a small smile " but I forgive you and I love you" she felt free having let go of the grudge atleast she can move on peacefully now.
" I forgive num too, if you had told me , a week ago I probably wouldn't care but now I met some one who is so nice to me and has taught me to love everyone and forgive. Dad, I met Jesus"