Orange Heart ~Joe Burrow

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Kenna's POV:

November 22nd, 2021

I was sitting in hair and makeup for the third time today, the first two were for Cobra Kai, and this time was for TASM3. I've also been rather distant from Joe since the incident in Las Vegas last night, it was safe to say that I was embarrassed about my actions, but it wasn't overly intentional either, I have been stupid busy this week and it's only Monday. I haven't spiraled like that since I broke up with my Ex, but it certainly wasn't the first time. My first spiral like that was when I was 16, my dad died and I wished more than anything that I could take his place or that I could die too. Hell, I have wanted to die since I was 12, but that changed when my dad came into my life, but then he died and I spiraled hard. Nearly killed myself unintentionally by doing stupid shit. Then I spiraled while I was with my most recent Ex and after I broke up with him. It's habit after something bad happens, I'm not too sure what caused my spiral in Vegas but I'm certainly glad that I wasn't alone because it would have been 10 times worse.

Anyway, I had a stupid early flight to get to the Cobra Kai set at 6 AM and work till 12 PM, then had an hour break, had an interview for another role from 1 PM to 1:30 PM, then had to come to The Amazing Spider-Man 3 set from 2 PM to 6 PM, and then I have Avatar 3 shooting later tonight from 7 PM to 11 PM. I'll be lucky if I make it home by midnight and am in bed by 1 AM just to be up and getting ready again by 5. It was getting to be a lot but I understand why, the producers and directors are time-crunching us to get stuff done so we can have holiday breaks, but hell, I feel like I'm dying.

November 23rd, 2021

My phone was buzzing and it startled me, "Hello?"

"Kenna, where are you?"

It was the producer for Cobra Kai, "What do you mean?"

"I needed you here early to try out wardrobe today, get here asap!"

The call was ended and I groaned, I looked at the clock and could have cried, it was 5 AM sharp, I got going and made it to the film location by 5:20 without breakfast. "There you are! It's about time you showed up,"

I rolled my eyes to myself and started going through the motions. I was on set for Cobra Kai from 5:20 AM until 2 PM, I then had to hustle to the set of Avatar 3 to be there from 2:30 PM until 7 PM. Then I had to go to The Amazing Spider-Man 3 set from 8 PM to 11 PM. I was shaking so badly from the lack of food and thankfully, Aaron took me to get food afterwards. I went back home and was able to go to sleep by midnight.

Another day of barely talking to Joe and feeling like shit because of it.

November 24th, 2021

I woke up in the middle of the night and checked my alarm clock, it was 4 AM, I got up, made breakfast, and took off for work, I sat in the parking lot for a few moments since I was early for once. I grabbed my phone and called Joe. "Hey, you're up early!"

"Hi, yeah, I know. How're you?"

"I'm good, are you okay? You sound out of it,"

I nodded to myself, "No, I'm good," I lied, I didn't need him to worry about this.

"Are you sure?"

"Completely,"

He sighed, "Okay,"

"I'm sorry that I haven't talked to you much, I feel awful because I've been so distant since Las Vegas, I didn't mean to be, I've just been so busy and I'm also embarrassed for starting to spiral like that in front of you,"

"You don't have to be embarrassed, I'm actually glad I was there to keep you from spiraling further, I know you're busy love, don't stress about it, just try to update me as much as possible, okay?"