Love You Secretly [MTL]

Ch 42

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The heavy snow melted slowly after a few days.

For the past few days, Taoxi has been staying at home and did not go out, and only went to the hospital for follow-up visits.

As the end of the year approaches, the road has already begun to have a Christmas atmosphere, and it is very lively everywhere. Taoxi walks through the bustling crowd alone, her back is lonely and deserted.

It seemed out of tune with the surrounding bustle.

Her heart was also cold and without any festive atmosphere, she just drove to the hospital silently. After the follow-up visit, she was not in the mood to go shopping elsewhere, so she returned home directly from the hospital.

In late winter and December, the days are still very short, just after five o'clock, and the sky has already started to get dark. When Taoxi returns home and opens the door, when the lights are not turned on, the entrance is a bit dark, and there is no light in the empty room.

She stood at the door and looked over, the empty room looked more and more deserted in the dim light.

Two days ago, after Jiang Chen came to help pick up Shang Huaiqing's three cats, the originally lively room suddenly became deserted, and now only Niannian and Taoxi were left to accompany each other, as if returning to the previous situation.

After changing shoes at the entrance, Tao Xi went in and turned on the light. The white light instantly covered the whole room, only Nian Nian was napping there in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, but there were still four cats playing together in the corner next to her. cat climbing frame.

She hasn't had time to clean up the extra cat bowls on the ground.

Looking at those familiar arrangements, Taoxi suddenly felt very sad. She stood where she was, and couldn't help crying.

It's only been a few days since breaking up with Shang Huaiqing, but Taoxi has cried so sadly for so many times.

Obviously she was the one who made up her mind to leave him, but she didn't expect that she would be stuck in the same place after leaving. She couldn't even delete the contact information with Shang Huaiqing, and she couldn't bear to delete all the WeChat messages with him. chat history.

At that time, she held the mobile phone and hesitated for a long time, but in the end, she just canceled the top chat with him.

In the past few days, Taoxi has always paid attention to the sound of the door opposite him, intentionally or unintentionally, but since Shang Huaiqing left her that day, he has completely disappeared, and the combination lock on the opposite side has never been heard since that day. The sound of opening.

The days passed day by day, the winter passed quickly, and the next spring came in a blink of an eye. Tao Xi spent Christmas, New Year, and Lunar New Year alone as before.

In the past three months, Taoxi's emotions have gradually calmed down. Although she hasn't come out completely, at least she won't cry a lot like she did at the beginning.

It's just that occasionally she still gets hurt, and even sees some words about feelings on the Internet, and she still feels as sad as before.

Just like last night, when she read the comments under her article, she saw such a conversation.

[Is short-term companionship a reward or a punishment? 】

【It's punishment. 】

The conversation was very short, but when Taoxi saw it, her emotions that had already calmed down could not help flooding again. Now she thought of Shang Huai's reddened eyes and tears when she parted that day, and her heart still felt like dense needles. Painful past.

If time could be turned back, she hoped that she would not show up at Lu Zhaomin's psychological clinic that day, nor would she meet Shang Huaiqing.

He is such a good person, he should not be punished like this.

She would rather bear all the pain alone.

Time continues to pass day by day, and after spring is summer, Taoxi has lived a very fulfilling life. A novel she completed before sold the film and television rights, and it will be adapted into a movie for the big screen. Gotta get busy.

It was okay during the day, and the whole person was busy indulging in the fireworks in the world, and it was easy to forget those sad past events, but when night came and returned home alone, when she watched the sky outside the French windows getting darker, her heart seemed to be Something was sinking slowly, which made her sad.

Especially when she was alone in the middle of the night, the bustle around her during the day suddenly dissipated, and those hidden emotions flooded wantonly in her heart without saying hello.

It was almost so turbulent that she couldn't stand it.

It turned out that she was still addicted to the past and couldn't extricate herself, even though it had been nearly half a year since she broke up with Shang Huaiqing.

Just entering the summer, there was a downpour, with lightning and thunder, and without warning, it flashed through the floor-to-ceiling windows, Niannian frightened and got under the sofa, but Taoxi sat indifferently at the writing desk, she stopped her hands work, looking out the window.

No matter how violent the heavy rain outside was, she was never frightened.

It was like the unresolved pain after being separated from Shang Huaiqing, which filled my heart and easily overwhelmed other emotions.

It's just that when she woke up from a nap on a cloudy day, it was not evening yet, but the darkness of the cloudy day had already overwhelmed most of the room, and it seemed to be pressing on her chest.

She just felt as if she was the only one left in the world. She sat up from the bed, raised her hand, and touched the wet tears on her face in a trance.

In July, the screenwriter of the film script invited Taoxi to go to the south to check the filming locations selected by the crew. She did not refuse. Firstly, she wanted to relax. Secondly, this was her first novel adapted into a movie. Pay attention, I want to do many things by myself.

After settling in Niannian, Taoxi followed the screenwriter and set off to the south. When he arrived at the small town chosen by the crew, as soon as he got out of the car, he smelled a strong and familiar scent of sweet-scented osmanthus.

For a moment, Taoxi had the illusion that she had returned to the scene where Shang Huaiqing took her to Yuhuai Town last year.

After checking the map, it turned out that Yuhuai Town was not far from here, only half an hour's drive away.

After finishing business and saying goodbye to the screenwriter, Taoxi did not leave in a hurry, but went to Yuhuai Town alone.

It's the rainy season in the south, but it didn't rain on the day she arrived in Yuhuai Town, but the weather was very gloomy, and it was very dull when the rain was about to fall.

She pulled the suitcase and went straight to the homestay where she once lived with Shang Huaiqing. She stood at the door, but she didn't go in. Memories flooded her face, making her eyes wet.

She stood there for a long time, but she didn't have the courage to go in. In the end, she still lived in the nearby B&B.

It happened to be lunch time, after Taoxi put down her luggage, she came out again, wandered around the street, and unknowingly walked to the rice noodle shop where she used to eat with Shang Huaiqing.

There were not too many people in the store, and there were still more than half of the vacant seats. Taoxi walked into the store and ordered a fried rice noodle.

When the young proprietress brought her fried rice noodles, she couldn't help but glance at her: "You look familiar, I seem to have seen you somewhere."

Tao Xi smiled faintly: "I came last year."

"Oh, I I just said I met you, but it seemed that I was following a man who was as good-looking as you."

Tao Xi didn't speak again.

"It's all right, don't disturb the customers eating."

The old maid stood there and didn't leave, she seemed to want to talk to Taoxi, but was pulled away by a man beside her.

Taoxi was the only one left in this position.

Taoxi took out a pair of chopsticks and tasted the rice noodles. The taste was still as good as last year's, but maybe she didn't have much appetite just after arriving here, and she couldn't eat half of it.

After coming out of the rice noodle shop, it was still cloudy outside, but it didn't rain, and the cool breeze felt comfortable on her face. Instead of going back to the B&B, Taoxi found a local tour guide to take her to the bamboo forest in the town.

The tour guide is a young girl in her early twenties. She chatted enthusiastically with Taoxi along the way, and she responded casually, but most of the time she was fascinated by looking at the bamboo forest in the cloudy sky.

When I looked up, the lush green covered the entire line of sight. Rows of tall and straight bamboos seemed to extend into the distance, as if there was no end in sight. The wind blowing through the bamboo forest made a rustling sound, listening to the All feel calm down.

The deeper you go, the more you can feel the tranquility and profoundness of the bamboo forest.

I don't know how long I walked, until I saw the abandoned temple not far away, Taoxi stopped, and said to the girl tour guide beside me: "Just send it here." "Don't look any

further ?" The tour guide also stopped.

"No, thank you, just wait until I go back by myself." Taoxi took out her phone, opened WeChat, and continued, "I'll transfer the fee to you on WeChat." "Okay, then you still have other

places If you want to go shopping, just give me a call."

"Well, good."

After transferring the money, the tour guide girl left directly, leaving Taoxi to walk forward alone.

The sky was still gloomy, and Taoxi walked slowly along the winding stone path in the bamboo forest. The closer she got to the temple, the quieter she felt.

Walking to the gate of the temple, I saw the old Buddhist hall in front of me. Under the cloudy sky, the abandoned Buddhist hall was still solemn and clean.

Her heart also became more and more clean.

It was also at this time that Taoxi finally realized that she had come all the way here, Yuhuai Town, bamboo forests, temples, no matter where she had no reason to come, but she seemed to be attracted by her in the dark. As if guided by some kind of thought, I came here unconsciously.

The wind blew across her cheeks, with the rustling sound of the bamboo forest and the jingle of the wishing bamboos coming from the wing, Tao Xi came back to her senses and turned her head to look over. wishing bamboo.

It was almost the same scene as last year, but now Taoxi was the only one left.

She lifted her foot and walked over, originally thinking to go directly to the window, looking for the love bamboo she and Shang Huaiqing left last year, but just as she walked to the door, she saw the old man raised his head and asked her casually: "Why?" Did you come here by yourself?"

Tao Xi was startled for a moment, and before she had time to think about the meaning of the old man's words, she saw the old man lowered his head again, as if talking to her, or muttering to himself One sentence: "Forget it, it's all preordained."

Seeing that the old man lowered his head, Tao Xi didn't take the initiative to speak again, she raised her foot and continued to walk towards the window.

Compared with last year, there are more wishing bamboos tied with red strings on the branches by the window, or bamboo tubes such as admiration bamboos.

However, it was a year apart, but last year Taoxi and Shang Huaiqing's Qingxin bamboo had already been buried in other bamboo tubes. She searched for a long time before finally finding the Qingxin bamboo that Shang Huaiqing had left behind.

When she untied the red rope and slowly took out the white paper from the bamboo tube, Taoxi was so nervous that her fingertips were trembling. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, but her heart was still beating in a panic. She almost closed her eyes. He unfolded the white paper in his hand.

There was a wind blowing over, and the clinking of bamboo tubes rang again, Tao Xi slowly opened his eyes, and looked at the white paper that had been spread out in his hand.

There was only a short paragraph left by Shang Huaiqing on it.

Taoxi, although there are many things I want to tell you, in fact, I want you to know that meeting you and being with you is the happiest thing in my life.

No matter which of us loses the other, we will be the loneliest one in this world.

So I hope you can stay with me forever, eat the meals you cook together, watch the sunset together by bicycle, and do many interesting things together.

Just spend the rest of your life with me depending on each other.

After reading this passage, Tao Xi felt her heart constrict suddenly, and tears fell down with big drops, staining the white paper in her hand.

She stood there without any reaction for a long time, until she lightly stroked the white paper with her fingertips, only then did she realize that there were actually two white papers rolled in Shang Huaiqing's bamboo tube.

It may be that the paper is too thin and glued together, and she opened it with her eyes closed just now, but she didn't realize it. Now she peeled off the top sheet of paper that she had read, only to see the white paper below. There is a saying.

Although the font is a bit smudged, it can still be seen that it is Shang Huaiqing's straight and delicate font, each stroke is clear, as if it is truly telling the straightforward and sincere thoughts that he has hidden deeply .

——Taoxi, I will always wait for you, no matter how long.