Dear H

Chapter 30

Hanni's POV

Minji and I didn't say anything as we both standing awkwardly outside my house.

"Um...Come on in." I turned around to open the door.

Minji followed me into the house but she stood far away from me. I sat down on the sofa and tapped the empty space beside me but she quickly shook her head.

"Is this the reason why you never allow me to come to your house?" Minji asked while staring at me intently and I could see a bit of tears on the corner of her eyes.

I nodded my head and decided to come clean without making any excuse.

"Yes."

"Because you and Haerin are together.." she shook her head then corrected her word, "Married."

"Yes...I will explain now." I told her while getting up from my sofa then I walked closer towards her.

"Why did you keep it a secret?" she asked me and pulled her hand away after I grabbed her hand.

"Because it's all tied together and I wasn't ready to tell you yet." I explained to her and I just stood there, watching her expression closely.

"Hmm..." she hummed while nodding her head without any expression, "Since when?"

"Haerin and I are married to each other for three years-" she quickly cut me off.

"It was a long time ago. So when you said you love me, you are married to her?" I nodded my head and bit my lips, "Yes."

"Okay.." she nodded with the same expression on her face.

"I don't love her." I paused then I tried to grab her hand again but she moved away again, "We got married at such a young age and then our feelings started to change after. But when I told you that I love you...I don't love her anymore and she doesn't love me too."

"Then why didn't you divorce?" Minji asked but this time she looked at me with her cold piercing eyes.

I was stunned for a bit because of the way she stared at me. It was so sharp and cold that it pierced through my heart. I was scared, I was scared that I might lose her today.

"Because I wasn't planning to get married again and it's a perfect payback for her. She broke my heart so I thought it would be great if she couldn't get married again because she's still bounded by marriage with me." I paused.

"I was very busy with my company, Minji. I don't care about romance moreover a relationship." I grabbed her hand and intertwined it with mine, "Now it matters to me."

I felt so calm and protected whenever we intertwined our fingers together. I could feel how much she loves me when our hands linked with each other but this time, it was different. She didn't hold my hand back like it used to be.

"Do you love me?" she asked me all of a sudden.

I nodded my head and leaned closer towards her lips. I was about to kiss her but she quickly looked away so I continued talking, "I do. I love you, Kim Minji."

"Do you think I love you?"

I held my breath because I was shocked with her sudden question. She looked at me with a cold eyes and it sent shivers all over my body.

"Yes. That's why-"

"No." she shook her head stopping me from talking any further, "I don't."

"Sorry?" I frowned when she pulled her hand away.

The warmth of her touch left me when she pulled her hand away. My hand felt cold and lonely. My heart hurts and it felt harder for me to breath. I felt like someone just stabbed a knife into my heart.

Minji coughed before speaking again, "I don't love you."

She said without looking at me and I didn't say anything because I was confused. Minji glanced at me but she quickly looked away before I could catch the emotion in her eyes.

"I don't love you, Hanni."

"What?" I frowned while staring at her, "I don't believe you."

She looked at me before smirking, "I don't love you. I never do. I was just playing with you all this time. Just a little payback for you because you treated me badly back then." she nodded her head before continuing.

"So we should stop seeing each other from now on."

She finished and I could feel tears started rolling down my cheek. Her confession, her expression, and her voice, they were so cold and heartless. It felt like someone hugged me and caressed my back but then they stabbed me on the back and left me alone with a knife.

I looked down and let my tears fell on the floor as she continued talking.

"I actually hate you. All those making love and kisses, all of them were fake. You see now? You did a payback to Haerin and I did my payback to you."

"Please stop.." I begged her but she shook her head. I kept looking down because I couldn't bear to see her eyes, it was so cold.

"Those were just merely lust without any love in it."

"Okay, I get that you don't love me so please stop." I shook my head and fell on my knee as I let my tears blur my view.

I looked into her eyes and even though I couldn't see her eyes I could still see that her eyes were red as if she was crying too. But I quickly threw that thought away.

Minji continued talking, "Now you know what it feels to have a broken heart." I whispered quietly without looking at her, "Do you hate me that much?"

She cleared her throat again and held her breath, "Stay away from me. We don't have to see each other again."

I saw that Minji bit her tongue slowly before she turned around walking away from me, "Goodbye."

"You said that you would never hurt me..." I said it faintly without looking at her, "But you did worst."

I continued to sob then wiped my tears, "You just sent me back to the darkest place again."