Dreamcatchers Strange New Makane (Male reader)

Chapter 23 - Dark Secrets

Date: 08/04/19

It was the day after our concert and I knew for a fact what I would be busy with that night. A certain girl was plaguing my mind. I might have just woke up but I know what I want- who I want.

Siyeon: I don't think you have ever woke up so hard. Do you want me to take care of you?

Y/n: Sorry noon-

Siyeon: Go fuck Yoohyeon already...actually wait until after breakfast. Then go crazy.

I walked out if mine and Siyeons shared room shirtless not caring and walked straight over to Yoohyeon who jumped up on me when I reached her. I held her up by her ass making her smirk.

Yoohyeon: When and where?

Y/n: After breakfast your bed.

Yoohyeon: Perfect.

She leaned closer and kissed me. Our kiss was heated until the two of us were separated.

Sua: Breakfast. Now hold your horny needs until after you eat.

Y/n: Are you jealous?

Sua: No why would I be!?

Yoohyeon: Oh? You got really defensive unnie~ I don't mind if you join.

Sua: I'm in.

Y/n: Maybe I don-

Yoohyeon: We all know you do.

Y/n: Yeah...so what's for breakfast?

Sua: Pancakes. Now put her down and come eat.

Y/n: You?

Sua: Later. You are not normally this horny.

Handong: He's never the horny one. Well...hes never so explicit about it. Are you feeling ok Baby?

Y/n: Yeah its just been a while.

Gahyeon: Me next! Y/n me next!

JiU: Honey are you sure that you are ok? Not worried about the second part of the tour?

Y/n: I promise noonas I'm fine. I'm just horny.

Yoohyeon: Then eat up and we can fuck quicker~

I ate quickly before going with Sua and Yoohyeon to their room.

Date: 22/04/19

Through out the next two weeks I had sex with each of the members. Most recently Jiu and Dami. I had let them sleep as I stepped out of the room and found the dorm perfectly quiet...my secret well I was scared of the tour. I am scared of messing up and ruining it. I just feel like I'm lacking compared to the girls. How did I deal with this fear? It wasn't good I knew that but...it took all the fear away. Cigarettes the key to my new confidence...

Y/n: Thank god they can't see the back of this shelf.

I grabbed the box and lighter off the shelf and walked out onto our balcony. It was a pretty night...at least I will relax quickly. I took a cigarette and put it between my lips before lighting it. I inhaled it into my cheeks and let it sit for a second before blowing it out. I continued for a few more times until someones arms wrapped around my back.

Dami: Put it out before someone that would kill you wakes up.

Y/n: S-Sorry noona.

Dami: Its ok. Now out it out.

I did as she told me and once I did she took the remaining packet as well as the lighter and put them inside.

Dami: Now tell me why you would do something so stupid?

Y/n: It helps me keep calm...

Dami: Its the tour isn't it? You are stressing out over it.

Y/n: No...

Dami: Y/n. Please. I promise I won-

Y/n: Noona...please just go back to bed...I promise I'll finish this one and come back to bed...

Dami: Y-Y/n please.

Y/n: Noona. I'm ok. Please just go back to bed and don't tell anyone.

Dami: F-Fine...

She stood up and walked back to bed. I finished the cigarette and stubbed it out before cleaning and getting rid off any evidence. I hid the packet and lighter into back of the cabinet. I brushed my teeth and then went back to Damis bed where she was laid awake waiting for me.

Dami: Come hug me.

I laid down with her and held her tightly as I went to sleep.

Date: 02/05/19

I need to relax. Why can't I relax? Please body help me. I need to go up and perform. I need to I have to. What's wrong with me? A-Am I becoming too reliant on the cigarettes...

Dami: Y/n? You ok?

Y/n: N-Noona...help.

Dami: What's wrong?

She came over and hugged me tightly as I clung onto her back.

Y/n: I can't relax. I-I'm scared. I-I need one. I can feel that I need one.

Dami: You need one? A-

She looked around and walked me outside of the dressing room and into a quiet space.

Dami: A cigarette?

Y/n: Y-Yes...noona I'm sorry...I'm so sorry. I never should have started I should have told you I was wor-

Dami: Baby look at me. Its ok. I'm not mad I will never be mad. It's ok just look at me baby. Relax that's all you need to do just focus on me. You have practised so hard and done so well. You can do this. Then when we get to the encore just stay by me I'll look af-

Sua: I can't listen longer. Y/n you started smoking? Really? Do you know how stupid that is?

Y/n: I-I'm sorry...

Sua: No! If you were sorry you would have told us and not hidden it. Dami how do you even know what he needs?

Dami: I may have found him...about a month ago...

Sua: And you didn't tell anyone?

Dami: He didn't want me to...

Sua: Y/n you aren't performing tonight. In fact we are going back to the changing room right now I will send everyone but the members out and you will tell them why you aren't preforming while I tell our manager!

I nodded my head without saying anything and walked back with Dami tightly holding my hand. When we reached the changing room Sua requested everyone leaves apart from the members. They all accepted and did so with Sua being last so she could talk to our manager.

JiU: Why did she-

Dami: Y/n has something he needs to tell you all...

Siyeon: What is it baby?

Y/n: I-I um...I have been struggling...

Handong: Aw~ baby why didn't you say so.

JiU had shot up from her seat and hugged me gently after I told her that. But I still needed to tell her the other thing.

Y/n: B-But there has been something that had been getting me through that I had been keeping a secret from everyone...

Dami: Tell them baby. It's ok. No one will be mad.

Y/n: I-I...um...I have been smoking...and I t-think I'm getting addicted...