Terrified

Chapter 12: Shine and Fly, My Love (Part 3 of 3)

As the night deepens, the time is getting shorter for Fatima and Heart, time that's ticking unusually faster for this very important day. Fatima is engrossed on checking out these items she bought back in the coffee stores they visited, getting all excited by checking them out all over again. From these cute souvenir mugs, these rare imported coffee beans to anything that she picked up, it's all making her ecstatic that she isn't looking what's ahead of her, to wherever Heart is driving them to.

Heart on the other hand let her do her thing on her own while she solely focused on driving, but grinning as she hears these little squeals she makes. And because Fatima isn't looking on their way, Heart drove fast but safe to where she planned to spend the remaining hours of the night being together. She barely talked the entire ride for all she wants to do is to take Fatima, to take her on a place where she started feeling this deepening affection for her.

"We're here." Heart announced and interrupted Fatima who is fixing the items back in the bags.

Fatima looked up and in an instant she lost her words, realizing where Heart just parked her car. In this familiar place that's definitely memorable for the both of them, on this hill where Heart first saw her cry and witnessed her weakest point, is where Heart brought them. While Heart is keeping her smile, Fatima has her mouth open for she doesn't know how to react and what to say with this surprise.

As Heart hopped off the car first, Fatima belatedly followed her in a muddle, "Heart, why are we here? Why did you bring us here?"

Without looking back and continues on walking ahead, Heart responds, "Don't you like it? This place is memorable for me because this is where I first saw the tough Fatima Anoñuevo, the passionate barista, cried and needed me. So, I just thought this would be the best place to visit last before I go back to Thailand."

They reached the top in no time and it hasn't changed much, it's still as beautiful as how it used to be when they first visited. The night lights illuminate the city which can still be clearly seen from the top. The stars are seen up above but the wind has gone milder as the season has calmed down, yet still cold enough to make them shiver.

Stepping here brought them back to the good memories they shared together in this same spot. It may have been a painful day for Fatima that time but it was that same moment when she found comfort from Heart and for the first time from someone else that's not her best friend or from her ex-lover. It was on that day she opened her heart and showed emotions openly and how she felt comfortable being vulnerable around Heart for she deemed her dependable.

But today is different and Fatima has to once again remind herself of that. Thus she sits on the grassy ground and asks, "Are you planning to come back here? Will you ever come back?"

Heart joins her on the ground and nods while looking down the night city, "I will definitely come back. There are a lot of reasons for me to come back."

"Don't forget to visit me, okay? I'll give you a free tour with free coffee again if you want." Fatima winked and playfully nudged Heart in order for her to easily control her real emotions from exploding.

"You know..." Heart breathed and when she sensed Fatima staring at her from the side, she went on, "I'm actually a mess... I don't really know to be honest... I'm confused..."

"Excuse me?" Fatima furrowed her eyebrows.

Heart once again exhaled as she releases, "At first, I wanted to leave because I want to heal myself from being hurt. But then again I'm doubting if I should really do it, then my mind changes again. It's like fluctuating and it's confusing me. After spending this day with you, I started to think what the right thing to do is... if I should stay away from you or be with you... As I spent this day with you thinking it's the last, it started becoming hard for me when I thought it would be easy. I thought I found the answer just because I had a talk with Yumi but I guess by the end of the day, only I can know and tell myself..."