i think this time i'm dying // a wilbur soot fanfiction

~ chapter 2: i'm sorry.

cw: swearing, injuries, strong language

wilbur goes out into the garden as the ambulance take valerie. "hey lulah, do you wanna go see uncle tommy?" wilbur asks tallulah and she nods immediately "yes daddy!!" she jumps up and down as she runs inside. "you're gonna be good for him, okay?" wilbur questions once again. she nods and wilbur puts her shoes on and he slips his shoes on and carries her to the car. "daddy?" tallulah says, looking at wilbur.

"yes princess?" wilbur replies, softly.

"what did mummy mean when she said "stop lying to tallulah."?" she questions.

"nothing honey, don't worry about it.." he reassured her, with a little giggle at the end of his sentence. they get to tommy's and knock on the door. tommy groans, and he goes to the door and opens it, "oh hey wil.. hey tallulah!!" he chuckles and picks her up and tickles her. he smiles. "woah tommy, who was you kissing?" wilbur says, only joking around. he rolls his eyes, looking down. "well.. theres this g-girl, and i-i really like her," he replies, "but i dont think she l-likes me back.." he looks so ashamed in what he's just admitted.

"oh mate.. it's okay, i'm sure she does." wilbur comforts him, even though he needs comfort himself. "i hope so man." he responds, as he pulls him in for a hug. wilbur wants to break down in tommy's arms, but he doesn't want to be seen as weak, especially in front of his daughter. he pulls away, before his eyes overflow with tears. "can you look after lulah? val's in hospital.." wilbur asks.

"yeah mate, course. hope valerie's okay." tommy exclaims, smiling.

"bye.." he kisses tallulah goodbye and drives to the hospital.

after he gets there he rushes in, "hello, i-i've come to visit someone?" he asks the receptionist, panting and trying to catch his breath. "name?" they ask.

"valerie, valerie marie rose." he responds.

"room 103A sir, and who are you to valerie?" they ask again.

"her.. her fiancé." he mutters.

"right this way, sir." they lead him to where val is laying, crying in pain, as her cuts are being bandaged up. "oh val.." he rushes over and holds her hand.

"what do you mean "oh val" as if you didn't do this to me, william." valerie mutters.

"what was that miss?" the nurse asks.

"oh nothing." she replies, if looks could kill, wilbur would be dead by now. wilbur sits down, looking down. as the nurse leaves, he lets out a long-needed sigh. "i'm sorry i-i was drunk.."

"when are you not drunk wilbur?! it's worrying me and tallulah!!" val shouts, and she gasps with regret. "w-wilbur i didn't mean that. please, don't go?"

"fine, i'll stay." wilbur groans, that made his blood boil. "thanks a fucking lot for pointing out my drinking problem it's like i never noticed, sherlock holmes!!" wilbur thought, as his fists clench in total anger. until his phone vibrates. a call, from tommy. "one second." he stands outside and answers. "hey man what's up? why'd you call?"

"i need to talk to you.." he sounds worried.

"w-what about tommy.." he starts to get really paranoid, in case if he found out somehow about his depression.

"laura.. she.. left me on read after i said that she was kinda pretty.." he mumbles.

"send me a screenshot of what happened tom." wilbur exclaims, and so he did. they read:

tommy: hey laura, you okay?
laura: hey tom, no i just think i don't look good in this dress
tommy: show me!!
laura: *open one attachment* there
tommy: oh laura, well i think you look kinda pretty❤️
laura: *no reply*

"oh man.. i wouldn't worry about that, she's probably just busy, i'll be back.." wilbur mentions, and proceeds to mute his microphone whilst he lets out the biggest sigh of relief he didn't know he was holding onto, and unmutes himself. "right tom, ive gotta go mate, text me if anything happens to lulah yeah?" he asks him.

"alright, make sure you get home safe yeah? it's pretty late." he hangs up and wilbur goes back inside, shaking. "what's wrong with you now." val asks him, looking a bit concerned.

"nothing, i'm fine." wilbur mumbles.

"you don't seem it, you're shaking." said val.

"i said i'm fine, calm down!!" wilbur replies, he needs
to quit the lying, it's all just gonna kill him one day. he goes on his phone and he types into google "therapy near me" but he immediately deletes it. "i'm really not fine. god just someone help me!!!" he thought, but he doesn't know how to say it without breaking down. he then types in "how do i know if i'm depressed and not just sad" then deletes that also. "are you sure you're okay wil? you look.. nervous." val asks him, and he looks up from his phone screen. "yeah, don't worry about me, you're the main cause. you're in hospital." he responded. he puts his phone back in his pocket. "i'm going to get lullah from tommy's soon." he stated.  "okay, let me know when you have her." val responded.

"i'm sorry, for everything, valerie i love you really i do, and i'm happy to be your fiancé." wilbur explains to her. "are you only saying that because your girlfriend broke up with you?" val replies with a chuckle.

"no, really i mean it, i-i need you val.. you brought me back to life." wilbur blurts out. she sighs and sits up.

"i guess i'll forgive you. i can't stay mad at you forever." valerie looks at him. he smiles a tiny bit, just a tiny bit, like a smirk. "a-alright." he replies, with a nod shortly after. "so are you sure you're okay?" val asks with a smile. "i'm okay.." wilbur exclaims.

"do you promise?" val asks.

"mhm." wilbur replies.

"wilbur. do you promise?"

"yep."

wilbur leaves after a bit, and he goes to collect tallulah. knocking on tommy's door felt... difficult? as if he had no motivation in his arms just to knock on a door. "hey wilbur, come to get tallulah right?" he asks, chuckling. "well, yeah. i haven't come here to talk about my mental state have i?" he replies, laughing afterwards so tommy doesn't think he's being serious. "you worry me sometimes, william gold." as he gives him tallulah. "what do you mean tom? i'm fine, what are you talking about?" he replies back. tommy slowly nods, he doesn't think anything bad, right?

"i'm fine, i promise."