Stop playing around.

Chapter 1. Why dad?

○~Raven's Pov~○

I was in my mom's car, in the back seat looking out the window. Pure silence. It scared me. I tried to enjoy the peace by looking at the alive trees and blue sky that's filled with fluffy big and cozy clouds that look like cotton candy. Ohhh.. and the gorgeous birds having a bath in the pond that just formed because it rained the day before. That's what I would say if I was 7. I grew up. If someone would ask me what I see now, I dont think I would be bothered to even answer them. Questions are making me go crazy.. Not only questions, but humans too.

Stupid useless questions.

Before I knew it, we arrived home and I had to snap out of my thoughts. I got out of the car and desperately looked if my dad's car was in the garage. Luckily, it was. I was safe, not 100%. But I am safer. I hate being alone with my mother sometimes. Who am I lying to? She always makes me wanna.. wanna... explode, like she would feed of arguing with people, especially me and dad. I can't stand her anymore.

I wasnt even able to get my shoes off and she started. "Raven. Please explain me this whole situation." She said with a tone that she makes crazy with. Not only her, but anyone who does it. You can tell that they're mad, but they just decide to stick with the kind and calm tone, until you stand with your opinion and they start shouting. Atleast don't fake it. I hate when people fake their feelings, not hide them. Fake them.

"Why did the principal told me that you re failing most of your classes, skipping school and don't respect the teachers at all? And smoking..? Again? Raven.." My mom started to get mad.

Then my dad appeared. I love him, he always understands me, even through hard times. We got really close lately and I really hope it stays this way, since my mom's behavior is getting worse and I don't to deal with her all alone.

"What's happening?" His soft but deep voice spoke. I don't understand how he can be so calm. I feel my blood boiling.

"Andrew. We need to talk now!" My mom spoke and pushed my father gently, but with annoyance towards the backyard and waited for him to follow. "Go to your room, sweetie." He whispered to me, while walking towards his wife for 'the talk'.

I sighed and slowly walked upstairs towards my room. Why do I feel guilty? Ugh. I hate this feeling. As you could see me, Raven Thompson hates a lot of things. I don't think, I am not a very reasonable person either, so it's not only my mother's fault entirely. It's mine too. I just think if she didn't yell that much, I would probably be on good terms with her.

I miss old us.

When I was younger, me and my mom used to have a really happy and fun relationship . She would take me to ice cream and stuff. I have one specific memory with her, that I'd really like to relive it. After school she took me ice skating and we had so much fun. I remember her falling and we just stood there laughing. Raven.. stop with this thoughts.

Stupid memories.

I dropped my bag and took my phone. No new notifications. I sighed opening tik tok.

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After about a hour I heard my door crack. My father was there and I saw mom behind him making her way in the room. My dad looked worried and his eyes screamed guilty. He couldn't even look at me. Before my mother started he looked down at me lip-syncing "I'm sorry" and I finally understood. Fuck.

"Raven, me and your dad decided it would be the best if we sent you to this boarding school." My mom started, her voice was cold and her face was firm.

"Mother, no. I have friends.." I said quietly looking down feeling my eyes watering.

"You're going, Raven. Those little friends of yours are a bad influence. If you won't agree to go I will talk with their parents and maybe.. the police." Her voice changed she was yelling. I couldn't let her destroy my friends life. This woman can do anything if she wants to. Fuck.. I don't wanna go.

I sighed, tears falling down my cheecks. "Good, that's what I thought. Pack your bags." She walks away. My dad was looking at me sobbing there in silence. Why would he do that? He then walked off too.

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After a while I was done packing and wanted to go to the bathroom. Before I could reach the door handle. A heavy and masculine body stopped me. My dad. He was the last person I would wanna see at that moment, except from mom. He grabbed me to not run away. It was a gentle touch, but it was still impossible for me to escape.

"Dad.. I wanna go to the bathroom" I said avoiding eye contact. He sighed. "You know I didn't wanna send you away, right sweetheart? I'm sorry." He looked honest. His eyes were full of regret. "I know dad. It's okay. I am gonna be fine" I pulled him into a tight hug and he didn't hesitate to hug me back.

"I love you.." I said. He pulled away looking at me looking surprised, but he was really really happy. "I love you too, Raven." He pulled me into an even tighter hug.

The reason he was acting so emotional, was.. well because I never told him 'I love you'. I never told anyone that. But I felt like this was a great start. He told me that he would visit me often while I'm gone and I went in the bathroom.

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I got out of the shower and sighed. I looked at myself in the mirror. I look so ugly. No boy will ever like me.

Not that I care.

I opened the bathroom cabinet. I saw the blade there. My eyes felt wattery. I need a release.

But before I could grab it, my mom called me. I closed the cabinet and sighed walking out of the bathroom.

Downstairs, my mother was waiting for me. "Raven.." She starts, her voice was cold. She doesn't want me here. No one does. "The boarding school is very strict and I hope you will behave well. Otherwise.. there will be consequences. Now go to sleep. Tomorrow, be outside by 8 a.m." My mother spoke with no feelings of empathy or care. "I'm glad I don't have to see you every day, Sabrina." The words came out of my mouth. I cover my mouth as soon as I realised what I said. Fuck..No no no. Fuck-

"What did you say?" My mom's eyes started to fill with anger. "Nothing.." I mumbled and I ran to my room quickly.

"I AM NOT OVER, RAVEN. TOMORROW 8 A.M." She yelled after me, but I ignored her. I sighed and went to bed.

How will the school be? I hate new places.

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How do we feel? Is the story interesting?

This first chapter is a bit short and sad. I promise it will get better and it will have longer chapters<3
Lesbian shit is about to come:)

-with all my heart,
nellie♡