Linnea: A tale of the Snow Queen

Chapter 18, The Snow Queen

As the days passed I waited for a decision from Ingrid. I kept pestering her and everything. I even offered to have Agnar move here if they did get married. I eventually told Agnes about the whole situation and she wasn’t even mad. She applauded me for what I had done. To her I had accomplished the impossible and got Ingrid to consider marriage. We were all getting older. Except Ingrid and I, we looked the exact same. We weren’t aging. No one really noticed at first. I waited weeks for her verdict on Agnar’s proposal. Filip was pretty much ready to take the throne so we just had to wait.

Then one day it happened. Emil died peacefully in his sleep. It turns out that he was ill for sometime and kept it a secret from everyone. That’s why he had put so much pressure on Filip to find a wife and have children. Well now we needed children. Filip would need an heir someday. The coronation was a beautiful ceremony. It was really just a formality. He was already king before that. To everyone else he was the king, but to me he was just Filip. He had fulfilled his promise to make me a queen. To him, I was his Snow Queen. He called me that quite frequently. He called me other things like his angel but whenever he referred to me as his queen as just the two of us he said “My Snow Queen”. I found it strange at first but in time I grew to like it.

Shortly after the coronation Ingrid had reached a decision. It didn’t matter though. Agnar came to the castle one day. Ingrid was going to accept his proposal. Things would not go as planned though. You remember when I smashed the mirror right? Well it seemed that its effects started to take place specifically on me first. It might've been because my heart was almost frozen completely or because something happened right before that. EIther way the entire family was gathered in the family room. Ingrid had accepted his proposal, but then things took a turn for the worst. We had decided to let Agnar stay the night.

Agnar pulled me aside and we went for a walk so I could get to know him better. We went to the garden. It was in a corner of the garden that no one ever visited. I didn’t know why he brought me here, then his intentions became known. He drew a dagger upon me and nearly stabbed me. I had nearly dogged it in time but he kept trying to kill me, “Agnar why are you doing this?”
“You are a danger to everyone around you. I have foreseen it.”
“That’s not possible.” I replied. He was trying to stop something from happening. I didn’t know that at the time. I tried to stop him and run away but he kept coming at me. I tried to use my magic to stop him but it wasn’t working. Then something in me snapped. I no longer felt the need to spare his life. Even if it was what my sister wanted, I couldn’t risk our lives. I didn’t care any more. No more games with Agnar. He found me again but before he could swipe the dagger at me again, I touched my hand to his chest and froze him solid. He was now made completely of ice. I felt no remorse, little did I know that Lucas had seen the whole display. Then I realized what I had done. I had killed the only man that my sister ever wanted. Lucas stepped out of the shadows and I was afraid. I put my hand up just in case, “Get away from me.” I said
“Linnea…”
“Just get away.”
“Linnea I saw what he was trying to do. It’s okay.”
“Lucas, that was unnatural. I felt no remorse whatsoever. What do you think will happen if Ingrid finds out?”
“She won’t. We’ll make up an excuse and she’ll never know.” he replied. I took another look at Agnar. He was completely ice all the way through. His dagger still held in his hand was now also ice. This was not going well.

The next morning I told Ingrid that Agnar was dead. I told her that on our walk someone tried to attack me and he risked his life to save mine. She even asked to see the body multiple times but I told her about the gruesome scene. I tried with her and I felt no remorse about the lie or taking his life. It was strange that I didn’t feel any guilt for what I had done. It would’ve usually eaten me up inside but I felt nothing. Ingrid would never find out about any of this unless Lucas and I told her. She would’ve destroyed everything out of anger. She was just as dangerous as I am.

In the coming days I felt strange. It wasn't long until I figured out why. Ida had noticed that I was getting bigger. Turns out that I was pregnant. The child I had so desperately needed was coming. Filip would have an heir. I just hoped that the child wouldn’t carry the same burden as I. I knew we needed a boy but Filip and I wanted a girl. We were always on the same page. My duties as queen were being fulfilled. If only Emil could meet his grandchild, we knew he wanted a grandson. I was happy but also, I felt nothing. This had been going on for quite some time now. I would fluctuate in between feeling emotions and then feeling nothing. This would continue for the rest of my life.