Complicated Love

Like You'll Never See Me Again

*James prov*

I couldn't fall asleep for shit and it was straight blowing. I tried flipping my pillow but that aint work so I just walked round the apartment making sure everything was good. I ended up at what was suppose to be the baby's room and just stood at the door. I wanted to go in but I was completely frozen, well until I heard a voice loud as day saying "go in and hurry". I was confused but quickly followed instructions and found Bre on the floor about to take a bunch of pills. I slapped them out her hand and hugged her. I didn't know that she was this bad and I probably made it worse talking to Lauren. I blame myself everyday for this but I had to be strong for the both of us.

"Please let me be with my baby I can't do this anymore" she said while crying hysterically.

"If I let you go then who will I have huh? I need you as much as you need me cause we're both in the same boat" I told her looking her in those big beautiful sad eyes.

"I can't James.....I just can't" she kept saying until I rock the both of us to sleep.

*Bre's prov*

I woke up but didn't open my eyes. I was praying that all of this was a dream and that was just the worst nightmare of my life. I reached down to my belly and sure enough the nightmare was actually my reality. I knew James had to work so I didn't bother to reach for him. I just cried and cried until I was once again sleeping.

"Bre you really doing this for real like this ain't you baby girl"

"Johnathan?"

"Wassup been a couple of months I know you ain't forgot about my sexy ass that quick."

"No never that it's just that im really talking to you. Am I dead?"

"No slowness I came to talk to you, so let's just say you dreaming bout me"

"Ok well wassup"

"You tell me. You tryna kill yourself. I know I have no room to talk but you're better and stronger than that"

"Why did you do it and in front of me you know I couldn't handle it and till this day I still get flash backs"

"I did it because I was angry and stupid. I had problems at home, school, you was with James, and weed wasn't helping anymore. That was my only choice at the time and I did it in front of you because I was livid at the fact that you would die for him like he's the one for you"

"You never said anything you know I was always there for you"

"I know just like James is for you, don't make that same selfish mistake I did"

"It's different John. I lost you and my baby" I said breaking down

"I know but just know that you'll be ok besides I was assigned to look after Aaliyah"

I looked up to see him holding a beautiful brown skin baby with light brown eyes like mines and the biggest brightest smile with curly hair like James. I was just astonished and lost for words but was crying tears of joy.

"She's beautiful ain't it Bre. Looks just like you thankfully" We chuckled and I was just looking at her smiling.

"She's breath taking. I wish James could see her"

*Harp plays*

"What's that John?"

"It's time for us to go back but keep going on and never give up we're watching you" as they fade into a bright light.

I was waking up but im a 100% sure that the last thing I heard was "I love you mama". Tears rolled down my face as I realized that it's dark again. I got up and looked through the entire apartment for James. I found him on the balcony just looking at the stars. He then but his head down and surprisingly cried. I went and hugged him tightly from behind. He turned so that we could hug correctly and he hugged me like he'll never see me again and I did the same to him.