Complicated Love

It's Cool

Cause im cool with nothing -Jhene Aiko

*Bre prov*

As the days pass the pain hurts less and we are slowly but surely healing. Some days I catch myself staring in space thinking about what would've been or was this a sign, I don't know.

"Bre you know where my slides at?"

I looked by the door and chuckled while shaking my head. I swear James don't look for shit. Oh yea we still live together but we aren't together. We're just coexisting, we don't say much to each other and it's sad cause we were bestfriends but oh well.

"Have you looked in the living room?"

"Why would you ask that dumb ass question? Yes I have shit"

"First watch your fucking attitude when you talk to me and second if your stupid ass really looked you'll see it's right there by the door"

"That's all you had to say man damn"

"Whatever tell Lauren I said hey with her fine self" I said winking

"Chill bruh" James said with a straight face

"What she's fine as fuck ill go gay for her"

"I'm out bruh" he said walking out the door

I was just in the apartment bored so I called my bestfriend Desiree over. She wasn't doing nothing but being crafty with phone cases, pillows, and other stuff. So I just told her to bring it over so we could do it together.

She rung the doorbell and I made a beat on the door. She cursed me out but I eventually let her in. I received a slap in the back of my head on her way in.

"Why'd you hit me slut bucket"

"I know you're not calling anyone a slut bucket hoe but how are you"

"Im good you know fucking bitches getting money" I said laughing

She straight faced me and shook her head. My smile slowly faded and I gave her my famous the fuck face.

"What"

"You forgot you can't lie to me"

"Im fine you know. Im doing better with dealing with the miscarriage and its getting better"

"Then why are you still here love. Staying here doesn't help you're really hurting yourself again"

"I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't leave. I'm trying to move on but it's so damn hard. Like what's wrong with me and where did my happiness go"

"Bre listen to me sugar plum, you'll be fine without him and im here so you're never alone"

"So when you want me to leave him?"

"Now" she got up and started walking upstairs. She made it to my room which was suppose to be the nursery and did a little sigh before placing all my belongings in my suitcase.

"Rae you think he's gonna be ok without me?"

"I hate to be the one to tell you this but James has been seeing someone while you're here playing wife"

"Wow and I asked him if he had a girl a couple days ago because I don't want to have anything pop off and he lied to me saying no but It's cool"

We collected everything that belonged to me and was about to walk out when James walked in. He say the bags in my hand and his face was emotionless but his eyes read hurt, anger, and sadness. He didn't say anything like always so I took it upon myself to speak.

"James, after all we been through I just wanted to say thank you. You made me grow as a person and also realize that love is a dangerous thing. Anyways I don't want to hold you back anymore or be a reminder of what should've been so im leaving. I know we can't go back to what we was but we could at least be acquainted with one another"

"Nah I don't have any acquaintances and I don't want any"

"Well that's fine cause im cool with nothing"

And with that I walked towards him staring into his eyes with each step and gave him a quick kiss goodbye and left him along with my past behind. I guess that COMPLICATED LOVE wasn't meant to be.