Consistent, Inconsistent Mind

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I have her,

but,

he is still here.

he, the first love, he who i will never have,

there he stands,

and i still...

can't walk away.

Part of me cares for his mind,

the way he sees me through those ocean eyes.

owe we don't nor do we want anything from the other.

i still,

can't stay away.

a reminder of everything.

him existing, my misgiving.

waiting for my mistakes,

to smirk at the progress i never made.

the presence i seek

elusive,

i still,

can't look away.

a bug bite for one more year,

blood dripping, pain searing.

he's a part of my past,

a love never meant last,

my heart chose him,

but now i choose her.

cut the string that tethers me to he,

for i will be free.

free of him,

i can,

i will find a way.

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