Drowning|| Drug Addict Bakugo

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It was the next day and I was getting ready for school. It was Thursday, so the week was almost over. Sero said he'd get some cocaine from his cousin over the weekend so I just had to get through today and tomorrow for now.

I took a deep breath as I looked at myself in the mirror. Eye bags were prominent and my cheekbones were hallowed. I looked so- bad..

All these new realizations. It made me realize I really do need to be clean. I'd be better in the long run. I could even become a hero. I just have to fight this. I have to fight myself.

I left the bathroom and walked down the stairs into the kitchen. I tried willing myself to eat, but I just wasn't hungry. I know I'm losing a lot of weight because of my addiction, I can't let myself lose anymore. I need to get stronger. I need to get better. I sighed as I closed the fridge and leaned my forehead against it in defeat. I'll eat lunch. I just can't eat right now. "Good morning, Kat," I hear Sero say as he entered the kitchen. "Morning," I mumbled as I pushed myself off the fridge. "Trying to find something to eat?" He asked as he opened the pantry and took out the bread. "I know I should eat. I've gotten really skinny. I'm just not hungry. Could you make sure I don't back out on lunch today?" I asked as I walked out of the kitchen and walked over to the dining table. "Of course. I'll do my best," he said with a soft smile as he put his bread into the toaster.

As he finished eating his toast, we stood up, put on our shoes and walked to school. When we arrived, I was greeted by many of my classmates, this time, less obnoxiously. I sat in my desk quietly. Soon, class started and I did everything I could to pay attention, but all I could think about was the fact that I'd be getting high on Saturday.

I know i shouldn't think like this if I'm trying to get clean, but it sounds so fucking nice.

The bell rang and the teachers exchanged out. Mic walked in, and when he saw me he smiled. "Long time no see!! Now onto the lesson!" He said. He began teaching English phrases I've never even heard of and I felt panicky. I bit my lip and started tapping my foot. "Would you like my notes Kacchan?" I hear Deku whisper from behind me. I was about to yell at him, but realized I desperately needed them. I nodded and he handed me his notebook. "If you go like 20 pages back, that's from when you left," he whispered. I nodded and began flipping until I hit something I recognized so I moved forward from there. I looked over the notes swiftly, realizing how simple it was.

I internally scoffed at my ridiculous panic and continued to read. Once I finished, I handed Deku his notebook back with a quiet thanks. "I'll send you a picture of them so you can copy them down later," he whispered. "No need. Broke my phone," I muttered. "I'll send em to Sero then," he said. I nodded and looked forward. I took the notes from the board until class was over and an assignment was handed out. Aizawa told me I was excused from any missing work while I was gone, but that I needed to catch up anyways. I quickly finished the assignment, taking quick glances at Deku's and my notes for assistance since I didn't have it completely memorized yet.

Once I finished, I turned it in and laid my head on my desk as I stared out the window, looking at the calming trees. I gave a small smile as I felt at peace. My mind was blank, just thinking about the trees. For the first time in a really long time, it was blank without any substance.

The bell rang and Sero walked up to my desk. "Ready for lunch?" He asked. I sat up and nodded. I left my bag there and stood up, having my ID on me to order lunch with. "You looked really calm today. How are you feeling?" He asked. "Really good, actually. I almost freaked out earlier when Deku asked if I needed to look at his notes, but I didn't and I let him help me. It felt good. He said he'd send you his notes so I can copy them down later," I said. "Why can't he send them to you?" He asked. "Well, I broke my phone, so the screen doesn't work. I threw it at a wall. Then I got- you know and don't even have it anymore," I said with a shrug as we entered the line.

Suddenly, an arm wrapped around me and I flinched and shoved it off. "Hiiii kacchannnn!" Denki said with a stupid smile on his face. I rolled my eyes and scoffed. "Don't call me that," I muttered. "But Midoryia gets to!! And you hate him! So why not meeee your friend, your buddy, your bro, your-," he said. "Oh my god, shut up, whatever," I growled out. He laughed and nodded and I gave a small smile. "WOAH DUDE!" Kirishima yelled. "YOU SMILED!" He said with a toothy grin. I frowned and glared at him. "No I didn't!" I defended. "Deny it all you want, you enjoy being around us. We're besties," Mina said with a giggle. I groaned and rolled my eyes as the line moved forward. "How are you doing catching up in class? Need any notes?" Kirishima asked. "I'm fine, and if I were to get notes from anyone, it would NOT be you guys," I huffed. Mina snickered and kirishima and denki whined. "Kat, be nice," Sero said as he playfully shoved my shoulder. "Be nice? This is the nicest he's ever been!" Denki shouted. I rolled my eyes and smirked. "If you don't shut it, I'll blast you to hell!" I shouted. "There's the bakugo we know and love! I was starting to get worried there!" Kirishima teased. I rolled my eyes and grabbed my food alongside my group.

We sat at a table and they continued talking as I stared at my food. I'm not hungry. Why am I not hungry?!

"Would you like me to help?" Sero whispered. "How the hell could you help?" I asked loud enough for everyone else at the table to hear, not bothered by it in the slighted. They know I do drugs and that I went to rehab. "When I researched some things, I found out that because of the cocaine, it like stops your brain from registering when you're hungry. It suppresses a hormone or some shit like that. But because of how much you abused it, it's probably really weak. The more you work on getting clean, the better your appetite will be," Sero said. Denki looked at him with wide eyes. "Dude you're so smart-" he marveled. I snorted. "As if. This guy whines to me until I agree to help him with homework," I teased. "I'm happy to hear you're trying to get clean!" Mina said with a smile. "Oh- haha yeah. I'm trying," I muttered as I looked at the food.

"Maybe if you take a few bites, your body will realize it's hungry and you'll finish," kirishima said with a shrug. I humbled before taking a bite and swallowing. Nothing really happened but I continued to eat anyways. Everyone was chatting around me as I slowly picked at my food. They would talk about random things such at new memes or drama about America they saw on the news.

"There was an update to smash bros!! I downloaded it as soon as I heard about it!" Sero said with excitement. "I can't wait to kick your ass with it this weekend," I said with a smirk. "Okay but seriously, this guy is a god at the game until you sober him up!" Sero chuckled out. I scoffed and rolled my eyes. "I'll practice sober! So I can beat your ass no matter what!" I shouted.

"Oh my god! Smash bros slumber party at yours this weekend Sero?" Kirishima said with a gasp. "I'm down if bakugo is, it's gonna be when we start with his cleaning up journey, it might be hard," he said with a shrug. "I think it'll be fun. Plus it's just the beginning. Hasa will be easy on me," I said with a shrug. "Guysssss I can't! I have to go to my cousins wedding!" Mina whined. "IM SO FREE!" Denki yelled out excitedly. "Boys night!!" Kirishima shouted with a fist bump into the air. I snorted and shook my head. This weekend will be a fucking blast.