Little things ~Ziam Mayne~

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Liam
Let's say that Harry and Niall really missed each other... Really... Missed each other. Okay let's say I didn't sleep much tonight, I think you'll get what I mean. Zayn left 'round 11 P.M last night. It's just a normal school day today. Kinda boring, but I'll make something fun of it. I walk out of my apartment for my daily run. It's 6 A.M. I just do my daily route, it's trough the park, across the road of the apartment where Zayn lives and back. I kinda like running. It makes me feel healthy.

When I run across Zayn's apartment I see an ambulance standing there. I stop curious. I look up and see that the door of Zayn's house's open. What the fuck? I decide to walk upstairs. Louis is standing by the door. He looks like he saw a ghost. "Louis? What's wrong? Why is there an ambulance?" I ask, he sees me.

"God, Liam, hi, o my god I'm so happy you're here, I wanted to call you but I couldn't remember your number" he says, his voice sounds panicked. "Louis, what's wrong?" I'm panicked too now. "I was just eating breakfast when I heard a loud bang from Zayn's room. So I walked towards it and opened the door, and he just laid there on the ground, his arms full of cuts and blood."

"What?" I ask. "I really don't know what happened Liam, but it didn't look good so I called an ambulance." Two doctors walk by with Zayn on a brancard, he's awake, but he looks really scared and guilty. "Liam..." he mumbles ashamed, he seems not really happy I'm here. "God.... Erm, don't worry, I'll come to the hospital" I say. I turn myself to Louis again. "Can you go with the ambulance and call me if something happens?" He nods, I give him my number. "Okay, I'll see you at the hospital then." And with those words I run out of the apartment.

The first thing I do in the car is call Zayn and me in sick, I'm not gonna give lessons today, Zayn neither. Then I call Harry. "Hello?" I hear Harry say in a sleepy voice when he picks up. "Haz, I'm at the hospital, so take care of Niall and you okay? Don't forget university." "You- what? Why're you at the hospital? Are you okay?" "I am, Zayn's not, I'll explain later but I gotta go now" I say panicking. "Okay, keep calm and drive safe okay?" "Thanks, bye!"

In full speed I drive to the hospital, I can't stop thinking about what Louis said. Bang, Zayn's room, cuts, blood... Then everything comes on his place. Zayn cut himself again. I almost ride trough a red light. Fucking hell.

When I finally arrived at the hospital I walk with a worried face towards the counter. "Hello, how can I help you?" The woman asks with a smile. "I'm coming for Zayn Malik" I say fast. "I'll take a look for you." She types something in on her computer. "They're in room 228, second floor, turn right and it's at the end of the hallway" she says. "Thank you" I say and I walk towards the lift. "Ah there you are" Louis says when I walk inside the room. "I'll let you two talk, I'll go home to clean up the mess, okay Zayn?" Zayn sights and nods. "Good luck mate" Louis whispers, he pats my shoulder. "Thanks" I whisper back.

I sit down at the end of Zayn's bed. "So..." I start. "How'd you know there was something wrong? Why'd you come to my house?" Zayn asks, his voice sounds broken, like he's gonna cry. "Actually I didn't, I had my daily run and I saw an ambulance in front of the apartment complex and your door was open, so I walked upstairs and Louis looked at me like he saw a ghost, so I knew something was wrong" I explain. Zayn looks guilty down. "Sorry" he says. "No worries, and I called us sick so that's something less to worry about" I say with a crooked smile. "Thanks."

"So..." I say again. "You need to tell me what happened Z..." His eyes tear up immediately. "I can't" he says, it's almost a breath. "I know it's hard, but you need to try, can you do that for me?" I ask with a serious face. Zayn doubts for a second but nods. "Okay then..." "Take your time Z, I'll wait."

"I felt bad" Zayn starts. "Really bad..." he sights and it's silent for a moment. "Look, I have like this voice in my head who's just screaming that I need to cut myself when something bad happens, I had a small discussion with Louis earlier and that was enough for it to start yelling again" he says, pausing again for a while. "And I know I really need to stop, but I just can't" he says, a tear rolls out the corner of his eye. "I know I'm gonna kill myself one day if I go on like this, I really want to stop it Li, I just don't know how" he says. I'm silent, I didn't know he goes trough all of this. "Oh Zayn I'm so sorry I didn't notice" I say, I hug him, he hugs me tightly back. "None of this is your fault Liam, believe me."

"Have you tried seeing a therapist?" I ask when Zayn lets me go again. "No, but I'm just so busy, I don't have time to see one" he says with a sight. "Then we'll make time" I say. "I want you to feel better." Zayn smiles soft. "Thank you for being here for me Li" he says, his eyes are watery. "Hey, that's okay man, that's totally fine!" I say, pulling him in a hug again. "I'm always here for you, whenever you need me, can you promise me you'll tell me if something's wrong? I'm not gonna push you to talk then, but maybe we can do something distracting when you feel like that again, is that okay?" I ask. Zayn nods. "Okay, I promise" he says.

After a few hours Zayn's allowed to go home again. Louis is not home so I take him to mines. We watch random movies and play some video games during the day. Zayn really seems to enjoy it, so I'm happy 'bout that. "You know" Zayn starts when we finished another level of Mario. "You can tell it to Harry, if you want, but just it's not going really well with me and I kind of hurt myself, not really the details I told you earlier" He says then, I look surprised at him. "Really?" He nods. "Yeah." I hug him. "I'm so proud of you Z" I whisper into his ear. "Thank you Li, thank you..."