Little things ~Ziam Mayne~

-15-

Zayn
Liam and I walk laughing inside his house. There's no one home, Harry's at university and I don't know if Niall still sleeps here this week or that he's busy with his performances. "Is Niall performing again?" I ask to Liam, he nods. "Yeah he left yesterday evening and come back in a few days I think?" I nod understanding. "He's busy isn't he?" Liam nods again. "Yeah, but he makes as much time free for Harry as he can." "They're really cute together" I say, Liam wraps his arm around my shoulder. "Not cuter then we are." "Oh shut up Payne" I say laughing.

A few moments later I lay with my head in Liam's lap, we're watching "the hangover" for like the 24th time. But we're both not really focused on the screen. We're just looking each other in the eyes, giving each other loving looks. "I love you" Liam whispers soft. "I love you too" I whisper back. Liam bows forward and gives me a kiss.

"Shall I get some drinks?" Liam asks, he stands up. I groan in protest. "Nah, please stay here" I say. Liam laughs and sits down again. "Li?" "Yeah love?" "Shall we talk about the bullying?" "I don't think that's a good idea. I sit straight up and move closer to Liam, so his shoulder touches mine. I grab his hand and give it a small squeeze. "You never really talked about it Li, I don't want you to be the only one who knows it" I say. Liam shrugs and mumbles something like "I'm okay..." but I can see the tears forming in his eyes.

"Liam, I love you, I really do, but as you best friend I'm now gonna force you to talk about it or I'm gonna leave" I say. Liam sights. "Okay then" I say. I squeeze his hand again and look in his now watery eyes. "I know it's hard for you to talk about it love. And I get that, but you were only fifteen, you're keeping this for yourself for almost ten years now. You didn't even told me the full story of what happend, and I don't want you to struggle with it anymore" I say. Liam nods understanding.

"Well, you know, I still think about it, sometimes... okay pretty much, actually. And then I think like: what if I didn't came out, and that sort of stuff. Sometimes I really wanna know what would've happened if I just didn't came out. I think it was a dumb decision to come out in high school..." Liam confesses. I wrap my arm around him.

"I think, love, that it was a very brave decision, and I'm so proud of you that you just did it" I say, Liam lays his head on my shoulder. "Being not straight is difficult" he says with a soft voice. "Mhm-mhm" I answer. I run a hand trough Liam's hair, he let it grow a bit again. "I like your hair." "I'm gonna let it cut shorter in a while." "I still like it then."

"Was you unhappy in high school?" I ask. Liam shrugs. "I don't know, sometimes, I think" he answers. I nod. "Everyday was different, it depended in what kind of mood I was, when the bullying was really heavy I felt like I could trow myself out of the window but when it wasn't that bad I just felt okay" he says. "Ah okay." It's silent for a moment. "Do you... erm... still feel like you can trow yourself out of the window sometimes?" Liam laughs. "No, not really." I laugh too. "Okay, good."

"I think I'm gonna head home in a bit, Louis wanted to go eat somewhere, do you wanna go with us or do you already have plans, babe?" I ask Liam. "Oh, no, sorry, I promised Harry I would eat with him" Liam answers. I shrug. "Okay! No problem." We finish the movie and then I stand up. "Fuck" Liam says, he looks on his phone. "My first lesson is cancelled..."

That means we can't ride to school together. "Oh, erm, that's okay, I'll just go with the bus or something" I say. "Or... I'm just gonna go first period" Liam says smiling to me. "No, Li, c'mon..." "I'm gonna do that" he says with a grin. "Otherwise I miss our very romantic moments in the car." I roll my eyes with a laugh. "Idiot."

Liam
I decide to do my daily run now, Zayn's away and Harry's not home yet and because I didn't do it in the morning I think now is a good moment. I change myself in some sport clothes and grab my phone and earbuds from the table. I put my run playlist on. Getaway car form Taylor Swift starts to play and I walk out of my front door.

When I'm home after twenty minutes I take a shower. After I'm done I walk into the living room. Harry sits there. "Oh hi Haz!" I say, Harry smiles at me. "Hi Li!" "How was university?" I ask. "The same as always" he answers, he groans into a pillow. "I miss Niall" I can hear, I smile. "He'll come back in a few days, right?" Harry sits straight up again. "Yeah, in four days, but that's so fucking long!" Harry says, I laugh. "Oh c'mon you'll survive it." "You can't say anything, you see Zayn everyday like eight hours!"

Harry and I are just messing around a bit. "I'm hungry" Harry says. "Did you already had dinner?" He asks, I nod. "Yeah, I ate at Zayn's" I say. "Okay! I'm gonna order a pizza, do you want something or are you okay?" "I'm okay, thanks Haz, enjoy your pizza!" I say. "Thanks Li!" I walk upstairs. I'm my room I grab the scale from under my bed and step on it. Still fifty seven kilograms, way to heavy. I really need to eat less or I stay this fat. I look in the mirror. "C'mon Liam, you want to weigh less? Then you need to do something for it" I whisper to myself. With a sight I lie down on my bed. Life's hard.