Liam
"Guys! Stop! This is ridiculous!" I say. "Zayn doesn't has a crush on me!" "He does" Harry says. "Yes, he does" Niall says. I want to curse. I'm home for 15 minutes, 15 fucking minutes. And Niall and Harry are already shipping my with Zayn. Okay, I did told them what happend this whole week, but still. Just 15 minutes.
"I'm just 15 minutes home, and you're already shipping me with Zayn again!" I say, a bit pissed now. "Again? We never stopped?" Harry says smirking. "Shut up Harry, this isn't funny!" "It is, actually." "It fucking isn't!"
Frustrated I walk to my room, I don't know if this discussion comes from the fact that I'm just really tired, or from the fact that I almost confessed to Zayn, or from the fact that this whole sexual/romantic thing is just really, really difficult. I'm so tired, I didn't notice it the whole day, but I actually am. I lay down on my bed and stare to the ceiling.
And then, out of nothing, I start to cry. I just start to cry. Haha. Liam, who cries. I almost never cry, I always put my feeling away somewhere in my head until I can't stop it and start to cry. That's typical me, I can't help it.
"Liam?" I hear soft, together with a small knock on my door. The door opens, Harry stands there. "Oh, are you crying?" He sits down next to me. "Sorry man, I went to far" he says apologising. "It's okay" I say with a soft voice. "Why're you crying? Did we really went that far?" He asks with worried eyes. "No, it's not that, it's just... I'm really tired... And I almost confessed to Zayn yesterday noon, and... this whole situation is just so difficult... I fell in love with Zayn, my best friend, my person, my everything, and if he doesn't feels the same it'll mess up our whole friendship, our, what is it, 13 year long friendship" I say with a sight.
"I understand you" Harry says. "But you can't hold this feeling for yourself forever Li" he says, I sight again. "I know, I know, but I just... I don't want to mess up our friendship, it's really important to me..." I scream frustrated in my pillow. "Why is this so fucking difficult?" Harry pulls me in a hug.
"Hey, hey, calm down..." He rubs my back. "You're getting nowhere with being mad Li, calm down." "Sorry" I mumble in his shoulder. "I think I just need to be alone for a while..." I say. Harry smiles. "That's okay, I'm down with Niall, if something's wrong just tell me" he says, I nod. "Yeah, thanks." "You're welcome."
When Harry's downstairs I start to cry again. I can't stop, I can't fucking stop. The tears keep streaming down my face, what am I doing? I don't know. My head starts to hurt a bit from the crying, so I decide that I really need to stop. My phones buzzes and I see I have a text from Zayn.
Zaynie <3
Zaynie <3: Hi! Wanna come to mines? Louis is at Oli's and I'm sad and alone :(
Zaynie <3: Okay I'm not sad but I'm fuuuuucking bored
Zaynie <3: Just let me know <3
The heart, the fucking heart. It makes my stomach twist, but in a good way. The butterflies start to wake up and fly trough my stomach. I smile soft. I'm such a weirdo. Two minutes ago Zayn was the reason I cried, okay no, I'm not saying that in a good way, try again Liam. Two minutes ago my crush on Zayn was the reason I cried, that sounds better, and now I want to hang out with him, weird brain, weird life. But I decide to text him back.
Zaynie <3
You: Hi! Yeah sure I wanna come to yours! I'm on my way <3
Zaynie <3: Yayy thanksss <33
I walk downstairs. "I'm at Zayn's" I say. Niall starts to laugh and Harry gives me a weird look. "Okay then?" I chuckle. "Bye!" "Bye!" I turn around and walk away. "Oh, and do it safe" I say before I walk outside the door. "Liam fucking Payne!" I laugh and close the door. I get in my car and ride to Zayn's apartment.
"Hi" I say when he opens the door. "Hi" he says back. Het lets me inside. "So Louis just left you already?" I ask. "Well, he left a note and sushi in the fridge so he wasn't that rude" Zayn says with a smile. "Ah okay then." We stand a bit awkward opposite each other. "Erm..." I feel I start to blush a bit, I smile and look down. "Movie?" Zayn asks. "Sure" I answer.
Zayn and I are watching a marvel movie he wanted to see. I don't mind though. I don't really like marvel movies, but if Zayn likes it I think it's okay to watch. That sound probably pretty stupid, but the fact that I'm in love with Zayn is stupid too and nobody says something about that, so okay.
We're just sitting there, next to each other, watching a stupid Spider-Man movie. And it's like a magnet pulls me closer to Zayn. I don't know what's happening, but Zayn doesn't complain about it. He looks at me and slight smiles. "Hi" he says. "H-.... Hi?" Zayn looks me in my eyes. "Is everything okay?" He asks. "I-... I just... wow" I laugh.
Zayn frowns. "Y'alright?" "Yes, yes I just..." and that's it, that's when I do the most stupid thing I've ever done. I lean forward and push my lips against Zayn's. What the hell am I doing? I pull immediately back.
"O my god I'm so sorry" I say, I stand up. Zayn looks a bit startled, he doesn't say anything. "Sorry, I better leave" I say, I want to walk away. Zayn stands up and grabs my arm, I turn around and before I know it he kisses me, he fucking kisses me. "What took you so fucking long" he says without even pulling back. I've never been so confused as I am now.
"What-..." "Li... I love you too, and I heard you talking to me yesterday." It's silent. I don't want to talk about it any more and lean in to kiss Zayn again, this feels so wrong but so right at the same time.
He pulls back. "You're red" he says grinning. "Like really, really red." "Oh shut up." I smile and look a bit shy at my shoes. "I'm erm... gonna head home, I think." "Yeah okay..." "Bye." "Bye." I give Zayn a short kiss and leave him with flushed cheeks in his apartment.
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Little things ~Ziam Mayne~
Fanfic(COMPLETED) Imagine: you teach music on a high school in England and you fall in love with your co-worker who's also your best friend in your whole life. Welcome in the life of Liam Payne.
