Kiss Me Before the Sky Falls

-Chapter 16- Its Too Early For This Much Drama

"Alrighty, look at you! Think you gained an ounce, Jay." Louis bounced Jamie a little bit, and he gave a sleepy smile. "Your mum got you all sleepy, eh? Or was that you eating that much?" 

"That's all him." I grumbled. "He's trying to give me boob problems I swear." Louis stole a kiss on my check and resumed talking in a little voice to Jamie down the hall to his room. He must've been laying Jamie down when I heard a fluttery knock at the door, timid and quick. I wondered who it was and groggily went up to answer. 

"Liam?" 

"Uh, hi, Shelby, can I talk to you for a minute?" 

"...Sure? What about, Lee?" 

"About you. And me. Us." I eyed him, praying he'd given up already. "I just...just want closure, I guess. It didn't end the way I wanted it to, hell, I didn't want it to...I-I really guess I'm just making sure...you're happy." 

"I just had a baby...and you're asking if I'm happy? I looked into my son's eyes and watched him smile for the first time and you're asking me if I'm-Liam, I made the right choice. You're so low to come groveling back now! Asking me if I'm sure I'm walking down the right road?! I can blame YOU for almost pushing me to SUICIDE! You know who was there? Louis. So there's nothing-" His lips met mine with crushing force, I put my hands on his chest but never even tried to shove him. He wound his hands in my hair and I started to feel a little rush, hating it with every inch of me but I couldn't help it. He'd win even if I tried to push him off. And we were in front of my HOUSE.  

"Can Louis give you that?" He said breathlessly. I scowled and felt the urge to smack him, but I was pinned to the dammed door.  

"More than that! And he'll love me through it all!" I spat back. Hatred boiled in my veins.  

"Bel?" I heard the faint call behind the door. 

"And he's gonna help me now!" 

"You let me kiss you. How do you think he's gonna take that?" 

"Like I know better than to waste my time trying to get away from you." I hissed, venom seeping through every word.  

"Don't lie to yourself. You've got feelings for me, tucked away in a dusty box in your soul." 

"Fuck you. I pity you. You reek of desperation and Axe."  

"It's French, a fan threw it at my head." He smiled lovingly. "It resembles an American cologne?" 

"Get off me already! I've got people I need to rant to." 

"Ah ah ah, I'll kiss you again. You'll hear me out." 

"In one ear and out the other." I growled. But I stayed quiet. 

"I didn't mean what I was saying, I was rambling. I still love you, my colorful kitten." I avoided his eyes at mention of his pet nickname for me. I glowered at the floor, but my insides began to ache. "You remember that one night?" He said softly. 

"Worst night of my life." My voice wavered, revealing the pain underneath.  

"Oh, kit, don't be upset...we can have that again..." 

"No we can't!" I tried to keep my voice forceful, acting like the scars he'd scored in me weren't ripping open. "I love Louis..." I sounded unsure of it to myself. But I knew it, Liam, Liam hurt me...Louis was my angel...right? Yes he was! Don't doubt it! That's what he wants! 

"No you don't...Come back to me, love..." 

"No..." I whimpered. My eyes started to get wet and I turned my head to resist looking at him. He couldn't see me like this. I wanted Lou. I want Lou. I NEED Lou. I couldn't have felt this way towards Liam...and I can't still now...