Not wanted

chapter 18

I woke up this morning happy as ever like all the sadness and hatred I've been feeling this pass two month just vanished into thin air. After slipping my flats on and looking in the mirror I had to say I was looking great for my bae. I made my way to the kitchen finding Hakeem making breakfast his back facing me. I decided to have a little fun I sneak up behind him my mouth close to his ears and screamed happily "GOOD MORNING!!!!" I swear he literally jump ten feet into the air screaming like a little girl and the pancake he was recently flipping landing on his white T-shirt, I busted out laughing he turned and looked at me angrily okay maybe I did a little too much "what the hell cassandra!" "Oops sorry bro" I said in my innocent voice that works every time his face soften and he pulled me into a surprise hug "Im so glad to have you back" he said " I never want anywhere bro" he hugged me tighter almost cutting of my blood circulation " it felt like it" he said "okay your cutting of the little bit of oxygen I have left so can you please let me go"i said patting his back he release me smiling hard at me I looked at him weirdly his eyes went down to my shirt and his smile got bigger if that was even possible I looked down to see the pancake that was on him was now on me leaving a stain on my shirt normally I would be upset but this morning I was in an extra good mood so I won't let it affect me . After both of us changed we ate and headed to school I made my way to the spill out to find my two best friends in the spill out I made my way over to them " heyyy guys!!" I yelled happily at them, they jumped in surprise turned to look at me , Rolled their eyes and went back to whatever they were doing before. A frown crept on my face " what's wrong guys?!?" I ask as I take a seat with them they both ignored me. My heart dropped a little from my two best friends ignoring me, I get that I wasn't the best of friends for two months but out of anyone I expected these two to understand what I was going through. "So are you guys just going to ignore me or are you going to talk? " I ask getting irritated from the silence " you didn't have a problem doing that for two months "Adriana said with an attitude. " Really guys?!? Out of all people I didn't expect y'all to turn on me " " turn on you?!?Ain't Nobody turned on you actually you turned on us I understand you was going through some things but you just plain stop talking to us. saying hi or even telling us you were fine even when we knew you weren't would of been fine but you shut us out completely!!!" Rochelle raised her voice a little. " okay am sorry for ignoring y'all I should've of talked to you guys but y'all don't know what happened to me there " I said " we are your best friends you could of told us what happened and we probably could of helped you but you chose the stupid way out like you always do and completely ignored us like who the Fuck does that? " Adriana snapped " maybe if you guys tried to talk to me and found out why I was so quiet and depressed all those days you guys would've know" I yelled loosing my temper they have completely ruined my morning. All I wanted was to talked to my best friends but no I can't do because they're mad because I was depressed and traumatized from what happened. " we didn't try?? What the Fuck Cassandra we basically stood by you the whole Danm time we asked you over and over to talk to us but you would not say one word what else did you expect us to do chase your ass and beg you like Darren did sorry boo am not him I don't kiss ass!" Rochelle yelled I stared at her shocked. What the hell is wrong with these two I said i was sorry!! What more do they want to me to say " you know what Fuck it if you guys Want to stay mad stay mad for all I care " I said standing up "Running away from your problems as usual why am i not so surprised" Adriana said rolling her " Fuck you Adriana why don't you try getting kidnapped, Drugged by your ex, hit on and almost rapped by the same person who rapped you when you was little also getting talked down on and tell me how the fuck you feel. i understand how you guys feel because i admit i wasn't the best friend these past two months but i expected ya'll to understand me and once i finally feel better i want to talk to my bestfriends but they want to act like bitches!!" With that I stormed into the school not caring about the looks people were giving me. What the fuck is wrong with those two. They have totally ruined my high. if they want to be petty I'll let them be petty. I wasn't looking at where I was going resulting in me bumping someone I was about to apologize till she beat me to it " watch where you're fucking going!!! " she yelled I looked at her like she lost her Damm Mind " look here I don't know who the fuck you think you are but you need to calm the fuck down" I said not even apologizing how I was planning to and walked away not even giving her the chance to say anything. I still had 20 minutes before second period so I kept walking till somebody snatch me to the corner. Out of reflect I punched the shit out of them "shit!! Cassandra what the fuck" I looked up to see Daren holding the side of his face "oh shit I'm sorry I didn't know it was you" who the hell you thought it was " anger still in his voice " I don't know somebody who's trying to kidnapped me" I said lowly his face soften "sorry" I said again " you're not forgiven" he said " Babe am really sorry what can I do to make it up to you?" I said softly he just looked at me I stepped up to him and wrap my arms around his neck bringing his face close to mines "sorry " I said giving him my best puppy face and gave him a slow Peck on the lips then on the cheek I hitted "fine I forgive you" he said before grabbing my ass bringing me closer to him giving a full sweet kiss on the lips making my anger towards my friends vanish.