A Dying Legacy

Chapter 16

Being with Barret and Rosalita yesterday made the start of an amazing morning. I could easily wake up to a moment like that every day and never complain. But, the moment came where Barret grabbed me and pulled me into his chest. With Rosalita pressed to my backside, trailing kisses across my back and his lips on mine, I almost let myself get lost. My mind was elsewhere on Cloud 9 when he wrapped my legs around his waist. He pulled my core against him, and it was as I felt his tip press against my entrance that my brain came back down to reality.

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"Stop." I quickly ended our kiss and pressed against his chest to push him back from me.

At first, Barret was bewildered, but then his look turned to genuine concern that he had done something wrong. That look made me want to say 'ah, fuck it', and just be with him like I wanted to... but, it was too much of a risk. "Are you okay? Have I hurt you?"

I felt Rosalita's palm lay gently against my shoulder. She too had gotten caught up in the moment, but she was back in reality with me again- supporting me in this wonderful moment that was about to end so terribly.

"Nothing is wrong. I just can't... we can't... " as I looked into his eyes, the words kept dying on my tongue. Finally I got frustrated with myself and blurted out, "I can't have sex with you!" Even I was shocked by how abrupt it came out. I clamped my mouth shut in shock. Have I mentioned I am not the right Luna for seducing this man, yet? Fuck, why can't I get my words right!

Hurt flashed through his eyes, but like the Alpha he was, he quickly masked it. His eyes flickered down my body and when he looked back at me, there was a new determination in his eyes. "Are you sure about that? I can smell your arousal still growing, and your thighs are covered in the cum- " Barret's hand trailed up my thighs that were indeed wet from the orgasm he gave me. His hand trailed up until they slipped under my folds and brushed my clit. Just from that little touch, my lips trembled and I moaned out. "- that I put there." He pulled his hand back and brought his fingers up to my lips to lick them clean. I lost control of myself for a second again, and did exactly that, savoring the taste of mysel on his fingers.

When he pulled his fingers back, the words he hadn't expected slipped from my lips, "Yes... I'm sure."

"NO, you are absolutely not sure!" Lula yelled in our head.

"Yes, I am! He's still with Vanessa. He's still chosen her. I refused to chance getting pregnant while he's with her."

As Lula and I argued, the silence allowed those wicked seeds of doubt to seep back into Barret's mind. "It'll never matter what you say or do. You'll always be that Ugly Beast in her eyes." it whispered.

"Barret, STOP- " Koba tried to speak over his thoughts, but Barret could barely hear his wolf's voice over the others.

"Vanessa loves you for who you are. Vanessa has never judged your choices as Alpha. Here your Destined Mate lies in your arms, and she can't even stand the thought of being with you. Is that really the love you're going to choose over your Chosen Luna?"

"Stop listening to this stupid voice in your head! You're wrong, Cat- " Barret cut Koba off, done hearing him defend Cat and Lula. That voice was right. She still saw him as an Ugly Beast and this was a mistake. "You're right- " Barret agreed with Cat as he rolled over to the edge of the bed.

"Wait- " a pit formed in my stomach s he sat up, hunched over the edge of the bed. "- why does it feel like everything just went from bad to worse?"

"-you and I together... we lost control over ourselves cause of the damn Mate Bond, but that's all it was- a curse forcing attraction."

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