𝐒𝐮𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐇𝐢𝐦

FIFTEEN

"I'm facing the greatest."

15

Three months and nine days ago, I escaped my prison, running half-naked through a forest, terrified. Now, I'm trapped in a facade of somehow managing to live in relative peace. The past few months have been nothing short of a tragedy, but eventually, it didn't have to be. I've felt the pain, but like many women who've experienced trauma, I've learned to move forward—even with tears constantly threatening to spill.

The English countryside is one the most quiet relaxing places on earth, it's a shame not many people know about a area so undisturbred. The fun part is feeding the baby cows, they're just to adorable. Lydia has been an amazing help with my growing belly an all. She often times reminds me of my mother and grandmother, I regret how bad I left things with my mother, it wasn't right.

It good to have a peace of mind that she's safe and living fine in Brazil. Hopefully Stassie is doing okay I appreciate her bravery for following me.

"Amina! Are you day dreaming again darling?" Lydia called out smiling up at me.

"Y-yea sorry I uh.. blame the hormones, what were you saying?" I shook my head as I brush Jack, a black horse I grew to love.

"Doesn't matter now, but I do want to ask ya' what your plans are as far as your baby. I love having you here." A smile graced her face.

"I'm still a little lost, trying to piece it all in my head." I took a deep breathe chuckling, attempting to prevent myself from crying.

Lydia turned around to look at me, "Go on, my ears are open."

I continued, "well I've struggled my entire life not knowing who I wanted to be. I spent ninety percent of it trying to impress my dad so he can see me more even when we lived under the same roof. The other ten percent I spent angry trying to rebel against him with my ex boyfriend." A mini panic attack started in my chest, I almost forgot how to breathe until Lydia wrapped her arms around me rubbing my back.

I dried my eyes wanting to finish, but she sat us down on the grass across from each other.

"Archie was a adrenaline junkie, he did what he want with no regard of the consequences. I was his secret girlfriend for a start of it, I pretended that I didn't mind since who would want me you know? It felt great, everything did even though my dad hated him. I came close to losing myself. It hurt seeing him with other girls, but I would forgive him —

... again, and again, and again," my voice quietly fades as every memory of him came back to me. "That's how much I loved him, I knew he loved me. Our relationship was strange, but I went through all that to know I wasn't the one who could help fight his demons." I sniffled.

Lydia spoke, "Love makes us do crazy things. It's your story you feel how you want. Just as long as you heal properly and eventually grow balls to scream fuck off." We share a laugh.

"Sweetheart, you're more than your life's story you have a baby now. The men in your life disappointed you but promise me to never let it define you. I will be the first to tell you that not a single scar on my heart came from an enemy. Now forgot all these tears, we are surround by animals for god sake. Give this old lady a hug."

We lean in embracing each other. Staying in the country side, acting out a farm girl was truly a dream I didn't even have one thought about, and I didn't want it to end. This wonderful lady made me forget about my previous situation, the terror I ran away from. I have yet to mention why I ran away but it's no longer important.

Reign will not have me, he will literally have to physically drag me away.

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