"Suh none a unuh nuh know who him innah war wid, not even you Alex?"
"No."
Mi feel like fi contemplate the situation truly because nothing's making sense. Suh basically Odaine start a war after leaving me in the protection of these five men.
Did he even start it?
If he didn't, den who did?
These questions were left unanswered as di one person mi trust fi explain any a dis isn't here to do so.
Mi nuh like how him keep mi ina di dark bout certain stuffs.
Family, people, friends might be losing their lives right now and knowing that my community life rate is going down exceptionally fast, didn't do justice to my already concerned mind.
Mi wouldn't mind one a di stray bullets dem ketch mi aunty innah har knee-cap though.
Should I feel bad for thinking like this?
I mean Odaine is causing a massacre in Kingston and I'm here wishing that one of the bullets would somehow reach mi aunty.
Sigh, when since mi stay like dis.
"Mi a gah Mi bed early." I told the guys and jogged upstairs, my mother's words ringing deeply in my ear
"Don't you know your life is forever at risk just by being with him."
"A bullet that's meant for him might go to you instead,
There's a saying....listen to your elder's advice not because they're always right but because they have more experience of being wrong and I can't deny the fact that she's very much right.
All of what she said is true, but why am I not scared?
I should be scared but I'm not, Instead I feel the safest when I'm around him, doesn't that speak a lot about his character.
I don't know why he's entertaining this war thing, but until I find out from him, I won't judge whatever reasons he has.
Am I stupid for thinking like dis, for staying with him despite knowing how dangerous that is, for still having these strong feelings coming in faster than usain himself, for defending him and whatever his motives might be?
Am I?
I dropped face down in my bed and groaned, as the thunder rolls in the wavy dark sky proving to me that rain is just a few seconds from tearing and I was indeed right because not too long after the ice cold rain drops began to fog up the glass window.
The rain drops sliding down the window, kinda reminds me of when I I announced to Daine that I was pregnant with kenzo.
A bunch of his memories clouds my mind after. Mi remember our first date, first kiss, first time..... when he said those three meaningful words...
I love him, he's the first and only man I've ever loved and that feeling won't change anytime soon, I'm sure of it.
I'm just tired of worrying about him, tired of worrying if he'll be alive tomorrow, tired of being paranoid that I might lose him........again. That pain, I can't go through it a second time.
Only god knows what'll happen if I do.
Girl if I could shed you off, like a snake then I would have your toxic and venomous
