Heart wants what it wants

SOFIA

" I cant come with you guys , i have been called by journalism club , i am sure it has something to do with SM entertainment article , so you guys continue with your plan , go on your little movie night finally I wont be there to third wheel you guys"Hal said with teasing tone 

"Stop Hal you know he is my best friend and nothing is going on between us", I replied by  slapping her hand.

"you know the way how he looks at you with those heart eyes , He is my best friend I know him an you too,and be completly honest even you look at him that way, its time you stop lying to yourself and admit it , atleast dont lie to me, your best friend"

"Okay fine , I do have little feelings for him but i dont want it ruin something more important that is my friendship with him , so drop this and go I know how much you hate being late "Like that for the first time i confess to her and push her away ,though i might have gotten rid of her but i couldnt get rid of the conversation we just had .

"So hal is not coming today ?"Anton asked after i told him that she had to go to urgent meeting from journalism club.

"see we were going to watch Joker because of Hal's obsession with psychological thrillers , so what do you say we skip the movie go to my place and practice on the duet we are working on , I have almost completed composing tunes for it , you can examine it and we can also finalize lyrics ." Anton suggests  which i found very appealing so we head out to his dorm .

"Ahh i love what you have done with your room , last time i had been year there was nothing on the walls now you have all these poloroids with guys , your guitar hanging , and aww look you have even hanged photo of us three on the beach with your parents and photo of only us two-" I said while my finger graced the photo frame.

"See Sof I have been thinking , I know we are very good friends but I may have feelings for you which is something more than that , I LIKE YOU A LOT AND I CANT KEEP IT INSIDE ME ,I am sorry" he starts apologising seeing my shocked face so I correct him .

"Hey there is nothing to apologise I have same feelings towards you but there is a problem" i said .

"Wait , What you have same feelings towards me first lets stop there "He said

"Ya , you heard it right but nothing can happen between us , see you are going to be Idol and Idols cannot go on dates or have a girlfriend ." I said.

"But Idols can go on dates or have girlfriend if they can keep it a secret and no one can suspect us hanging out with each other as its already clear to everyone that we are bestfriends ." Anton said 

"but what if we fail to keep it a secret and you get cancelled before you even debut!"I Ask

"Ok , lets give it a trial run , see we can try to keep it a secret from our close ones , if we our close ones wont notice we can continue but we tell them this time " he suggests

"how long do you suggest this trial period to last ?" 

"I am thinking 6 months would be ideal" he answers to my question.

"Okay fine only me and you can know about this" I imply 

"hey we cant forget Hal!" he says 

"but that is the challenge and I dont want to have the talk with her or get constantly teased by her "

"but she is our bestfriend and it will be difficult to keep secrets from her, upon that she will be hurt too and you are not counting the possibility that she could be soo much help in hiding our secret" he said which was a damning point but the real reason for not telling her was that i wasnt sure if dating would workout with Anton and god forbid we start dating  breakup then last thing i want to is make Hal chooose one of us.

And that six months trial period ended with spring break and pretending and now i like this secret and i want to continue being like this but I dont think Anton wants the same so i am acting like i have forgotten about the agreement and i am trying to keep everyones attention on newly developed Hal and Wonbins situation and I think it is working because Hal texted me now that she is alone with Wonbin in assembly hall, apparently he has called no other member to attend the meeting.

GO HALBIN!