White Sheets • Zalfie

Tears & Fears

I woke up to be cuddled by an awake Alfie Deyes. Yes, awake. Shocked as you may be. "Morning gorgeous" He whispers. He comes up for a kiss and we start to get a little hot, he's tongue goes along my bottom lip, I don't hesitate to say no. Our tongues fight for dominance as normal. Alfie starts to straddle me. "You want too?" He whispers. I nod enthusiastically. "Mhm, me too" He mumbles.

After a erotic morning sex fling with Alfie, I felt that I needed to do something today. I wasn't sure what. Alfie had just gotten up to make me some breakfast. Bacon Sandwich, he knows best. I decided to follow him into the kitchen. He's standing there in his boxers frying away some bacon. I wrap my arms around his waist and cuddle him. He removes his hand from the pan and holds my hand. "I have a lot of editing to do today" He mumbles as he still hasn't brushed his teeth and he always feels inhuman before they are brushed. "Rather than talking like a weirdo why don't you go and brush your teeth" I giggle. "But I wanted to make you breakfast" he hesitates. "Its fine gorgeous" I take the pan and continue then frying as Alfie walks into the bathroom. Now saying that, I don't want to do much today, maybe I could just watch some movies on Alfie's sofa and then maybe make Alfie dinner. He comes through moments later and I explain my plan for today. He nods. "That's fine make your self at home as normal little one" he kisses my head and walk towards the study. I take my seat on Alfie sofa with a blanket and a hot chocolate. I flick through the movies and nothing really takes my fancy. I settle with 'Grown Ups 2'. I curl up inhaling Alfie's sent upon my surrounds and watch the movie.

I wake up in a bit of a daze. I rub my eyes to see the film was finished and it's now half three. Alfie is no where to be seen so I presume he's in the study. I slowly make my way over there. I peep through the door to see him typing away. I desperately want to go and hug him but I should get dinner on really as it takes a while. I walk into the kitchen and begin to prepare the beef Wellington (one of Alfie's favourite dishes). After two hours of working incredibly hard I plate up with beef making sure Alfie gets extra pastry and it's his favourite bit and often moans if he doesn't get enough. I toddle through to the study and see him still typing away, emails I presume. I lace my arms around his neck. I sit on his lap and begin to play with the back of his hair. "I made you beef wellington Alfie" I smile. He eyes are still focused on the screen. "Alf" I ask. I say he's name a few times before he viciously turns around. "ZOË! just give me a minute will you" As he gives me a little push of his lap. I stand gobsmacked for a moment. He was never ever like this. NEVER. I walk out the room tears filling my eyes. I don't even grab my dinner I head straight to the bed. I peel of all my clothes and get in, I can't leave now I'll have to wait for the morning. I start to cry because I can't hold it any longer. I make the pillow wet and I have to adjust it so I'm not sleeping on a wet bit. I watch the bedside clock tick my and hour and a half before I hear Alfie come into the bedroom. I shut my eyes, pretending I'm asleep. I hear clothes run of his body and I feel the covers lift and a gush of cold air flow through the sheets. I shuffle closer to the edge, being as far away from him as possible. He wraps his arm around me and pulls me close to him, so close I'm on his side. "I know your asleep Zoe, and I'll say all of this to awake Zoe in the morning. I know you probably despise me at the moment, but I'm so sorry for snapping at you earlier. I was editing that video all day and it keeps on deleting and I haven't got other bits done and I herd you making beef Wellington and I really wanted to be there with you and watch a movie after knowing all my boys are done but they arent. Zoe I'm so sorry. I love you so much. So much." He kisses my cheek and I feel his salty tears run down my face, he sniffs. "Please don't hate me, I need you more than anything in this world Zoe" He makes my heart melt. I know how it feels to be stressed and snap. I move slowly round to him and when he sees I'm awake he seems almost shocked. "Zoe-e I..." He starts. I bring my lips to his. "Shss, Alfie. Its fine" I say between kisses. "I didn't mean to make you cry little one" He says pausing our kiss for a moment. "It's fine, you made your self cry too so it's equal" I giggle trying to lighten the mood. "Please can we forget about it. It will never happen again" I nod my head and rest it on his chest. Our fingers inlaced with each other and back to normal. I cuddle him closer and close my eyes in hope I will wake this way in the morning.

Because I love you all x