White Sheets • Zalfie

Break & Make

Zoes Point Of View:

"Zoe and Alfie are just friends guys" Jonathan says to his camera. "Dont start in the comments 'Zalfie, Zalfie' because they arent together and its not what they want" He finalizes. I look at Alfie and smile, he smiles too. I hate doing this, I hate having to hide my relationship with Alf, I want to be able to vlog, and look and him in vlogs, hold his hand and make him smile all the time. But, this. This keeps getting in the way. Its distracting. Jonathan goes on to say that we had come down and that we are spending the day together, whilst me, Alfie and Anna talk in the kicthen. Alfie puts his arm around my waist and pulls me back so im leaning on his chest, he whispers "I love you". Everytime he says that, it gives me chills. Like I've fallen in love all over again, likes its all new but its been forever. "I love you too" I whisper back. "Im so happy you guys " Anna says giggling away. "Joffee, you ready?" She says calling out.

We jump in the car, following Anna and Jonathan to their nearest pub/restaurant which has a cute garden. Alfie puts his hand on my thigh and caressed it. "Its been so hard to keep my eyes off you today little one, you look so cute in that dress" Alfie whispers even though it doesnt matter because no one can hear. i did like my attire today. It was a grey long dress which I adored. I had my long hair straightened and a red lip. We pull up to traffic lights and I cant resist Alfie much longer, I slightly lean over to Alfie and press my lips upon his. It becomes passionate and loving at the same time. He tongue lines my bottom lip and I open my lips reluctantly.

After the meal my self and Alfie made our way home. We shared a few kisses and eventually made it back to my house. "Single bed life" Alfie mutters. "Just means you get to cuddle me all night gorgeous" I smile getting undressed. I got some shorts out of my draw. Alfie began to get undressed him self. I saw his shirt drop and I picked it up and put it over my head. "Knew it." He smiles. I got into bed, on the right side as normal, Alfie on the left. I put my phone on the side and Alfie cuddled into me. "Hey" He whispered. His breath trickling down my neck. "Hey" I smiled. He kissed my cheek, then going down to my jaw line, "Good night Zoe", "Goodnight Alfie"

Alfie's Point Of View:

I turned over to reveal Zoe's body sleeping peacefully. She turned a little and I pressed my lips on her neck. "Morning" I whispered, even though I knew she wasn't awake. I unplugged my phone and scrolled though my phone for an hour just reading through twitter, replying to some comments on my latest video. A few stuck out about 'Zalfie' but they were always there and I always loved them and gave them a thumbs up. That may make it a bit bait but, at the end of the day, they will know soon enough. Just not for now. Not until my Zoe is ready. "Morning Alf" Zoe pipes up. "Morning Little One, good sleep?" I say putting my phone on the side. "Yeah, especially as you cuddled me all night" She giggles slightly. "I had no choice but too" I smile. She hits me playfully and walks to the bathroom.

I said goodbye to Zoe as I left for Jims stag do. I really didnt want to go. I wanted to spend my weekend with Zoe and just be as lazy as ever and just share loads of kisses. But of course I had to be there for Jim. Plus, it wasnt too bad. I suppose.

As I got of the plane, I pulled out my phoe to text Zoe to say I was here. Only to already see a text.

Zoe:

Anna and Johnathan leaked us by accident. It was when we kissed in the car. They were filming in the car infront. I would have called but, your on a plane. Alf, I dont know what to do. I need you. I love you x x x

I read the text twice before reacting. Zoe needed me. i called her number and her trembling voice answered. "Al-lfie?" She stuttered. "Zoe, Lit-ttle One, Im here" I tried to stay strong. I knew Zoe didnt want this, well just not yet anyway. "I cc-cant breathe Alf" Why did today have to be the day? The day i was away from here. "Breathe Zoe. I love you" I repeat. I mouth to Jim about what had happened and he got up the Saccone-Joly vlog. I see it and we were all over each other! No wonder Zoe is stressed! "Want me to get on the next flight back? I'm sure Jim won't mind." Theres a pause. "No Alfie. I think I just need some time. Maybe we should go on a break, for now?" She whispers, Almost like she doesnt want to say it. "Zoe" start to sob. "Alfie. Im sorry. Its getting a bit much." She sighs. "I love you Zoe" I say strong and confident. "Ill see you soon Alfie." The line goes dead. She didnt call me Alf, or gorgeous, in fact none of her nicknames were mentioned. Plain old Alfie.

"Alfie you can go back home if you like. I dont mind." Jim says as we all sit around the table eating lunch. "I only want to go home if Zoe will be waiting when I get off. But, I seem to be bringing a downer on, Jim I promise I'll make it up to you" I say walking back to hotel. I packed my bags and made my way back to England.

I went straight to my flat. Zoe had been here. I knew. Zoes known sent and the way the pillows were arranged. I had to find something to distract me. I had already had a breakdown on the plane with a hundred people staring. Because that wasnt fun. I laid down on the sofa and pulled up twitter. I took a deep breath. I hadnt checked it what so ever. My mentions were full of tweets about the 'Zalfie' thing. I saw they were all in reply of Zoe. I checked her tweet.

'My self and @Pointlessblog, are not in a relationship together.'

That was it. She didnt say anymore. I couldnt help but wonder if it was true? Maybe we arent. I clicked on my email to see a few from Dom asking about yesterdays events. I left them emails. Till I came across the YouTube party I was supposed to be going too. Mmm. That would be distracting, plus Dom will be there for me to explain.

As I arrive at the penthouse of this tall building I instantly regret it. I take my self to the bar and get a coke with no ice. I find Dom and we begin talking. "I just love her so much Dom" I breathe. "I know. Everyone knows. As does she. Okay? You dont have to worry, your Zalfie. You'll get through this" He smiles. How can he be smiling? Through all of this. All I want is to cuddle up to Zoe tonight and sleep. But I cant.

I mingle around about, making conversation with Louise. She says Zoe is upset, understood, but also shes the one breaking my heart, when days ago we were cuddling and saying 'I love you' now its, Im not speaking to you. She didnt even say I love you on the phone the other day. Thats how much it sucked. It wasnt until I got out of the conversation with Louise I saw Zoe. Talking to Jack. Jack. Oh my god. He wrapped his arm around her waist and he giggled. Zoe didnt giggle. She looked creeped out. I need to help her. He whispered something in her ear and I have never seen Zoe look so uncomfortable before.

Zoes Point Of View (Lots of Views sorry guys)

"Maybe we can head back to mine now that twat Alfie is out the picture" Jack whispers as his arm is around my waist. I felt sick. Out of all the things Alfie was, he was never a twat. And for that matter, he was never anything bad. I probably made his life hell. I felt someone grab hold of my hand and drag me back to the girls bathroom. I didnt see who it was until the grabbing stopped. "HEY-" I screamed until I saw who it was. Alfie. "Zoe please," He sobs. "At least if your going to put us on a break, dont flirt with Jack. Please" He sobs again, not allowing me to say anything. "I love you so god damn much," He says. "I know you wont say it back just yet, but I need you to know it." With that he walks out.

Alfie Point Of View:

I open my front door after the weird encounter with Zoe and sitting on the floor with my back against the sofa drinking the hot chocolate Zoe left here. I didn't want to sit on the sofa because Zoe had arranged it and it had her sent. I need to keep it that way. I finally decided that I should go to bed so I made my way to my bedroom. I stripped down till I was naked and got into my white puffy sheets I had shared with Zoe not three days ago. I needed Zoe in my life. I didn't know what life was without her. Now that I know, I need her twenty four seven. I want her by my side all the time. I want to sit and watch as she achieves so many things and I want to be there for her with every anxiety attack. I lay for about an hour and then I hear the front door. Terrified out of my mind I hide under my sheets. I should really be a man and go out there, but I feel so weak. I don't really have anything to live for without Zoe. My bedroom door opens and a small figure appears. "Alfalfa?" The person sobs. The only person that would say that is "Little One?" The figure comes running towards me and jumps on the bed. Lips are pressed against mine and I would recognize that 'Pink Grapefruit' lip balm from BodyShop anywhere. It was my Zoe. Her tongue lined my bottom lip and of course I opened my lips. She pulled away, "Im so sorry, so, so, so, so, so, sorry Alf" She repeats. "Its fine" I say reattaching our lips. She continues to straddle me. I take of her top slowly, then her bra, her shorts, then her knickers. She snuggles down in next to me. She kisses my chest lightly, "Im so sorry" She says again. "Next time you say sorry, I swear to god" I chuckle. "Im sorry" She says smiling. I pin her down and begin to tickle her. "ALFIEE!!!" She screams. "WHAT ZOE? I CANT HEAR YOU?!" I say screaming pretending like I cant hear her. She reaches up and kisses me on the lips. Allowing me to collapse on her. Forgetting about tickling her and gently kisses. "I love you Zoe" I say, hoping that she will now say it back. "I love you so much too, and I really am" I kiss er one more time before going to sleep, cuddled with my girlfriend.

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