Give Me Back My Childhood. /a Tommyinnit Angst Story/

okay will its gonna be okay

shaltt hugged me from behind as I jumped. I hadn't realised I was crying till now. I turned to shlatt and he enveloped me in a hug. I was way taller than shlatt but that's fine. I sobbed into his shoulder quietly.
"it's gunna be okay will."
it wasn't gonna be okay, I wasn't okay, no one was okay. I wanted life to go back to normal. I want to go play on the keyboard with fundy like we used to to. but all that was gone, and it was gonna be gone forever. why may you ask? he was dead. his own bsf had taken his life only 6 hours before. (just a lil recap.) wilburs world was torn apart by it.

the walls pov:
wilbur was autistic, he hated loud noises (don't think I've mentioned this b4 lol) and sometimes he would go non verbal for days, god he could do it for weeks,months even years. he had done it for years. and that was because of his father. his father had stopped caring after wilburs diagnosis.

. non verbal wilbur.it hadn't happend for years. Will was always a talkative person. he still stood shlatt hugging him. wilbur just stood not knowing what to do so he just hugged shlatt back.

wilbur and shlatt slowly walked to wilburs room.closing the blinds, shutting the door and unmasking the bed.

"cmon will."

wilbur nodded and climbed into the bed, shlatt lay beside him cuddling onto wilburs arm. it was like 12am so makes sense why they were going to sleep. wilbur just lay still next to the sleeping shlatt. thinking about fundy. he picked his phone up off the table and going onto his and fundys old messages. it took him ages to scroll to the top, when he finally did he began to read the messages slowly one by one. by the time he had finished it was 5am. he decided to message fundys mother back.

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beanie bitch 🫦
hi sorry. I'm very sorry for your loss. I've been spending the day grieving.thank you for bringing over the stuff he left me. you was a good mum to him.
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he switched off his phone and put it on the side once again. he stared at the wall for ages before deciding to get up. by that time it was 5:23. he pulled on a hoodie and shorts pulling on his shoes and getting his hidden ciggarette packet out and his lighter and stuffing it in the pocket of his jumper before picking up his phone and headphones and walking out of the bedroomn shutting the door quietly behind him.

he walked into the kitchen, unlocking the door and going onto the patio. he shut the door behind him. it was cold outside. he pulled up his hood and sat down on one of the chairs, switching on his phone and putting music on his headphones. he placed the headphones on and got his ciggarette box out and getting one out. he held it in his fingers and lit it. he put it in his mouth inhaling it and exhaling. he did this until he was done with it. he burnt it off by pressing it to his hand, burning a mark onto his rather cold and slim hand. he threw the ciggarette and put the lighter and box of ciggarettes in his pocket. he decided to take his hoodie off so he was just in a tshirt and shorts. God it was cold but he didn't care. he shiverd every few seconds before he got used to it and just sat there. it became lighter and lighter outside till it was bright outside. Still cold though. a dark cloud coverd the sky. music still playing on his headphones he rested his elbow on the chair arm and put his hand on his cheek just staring at the garden.

he checked the time.
7:56
just as he put his phone down again the backdoor opend and someone sat beside him.

"how long you born out here for?" the voice spoke

wilbur just shrugged. he looked at the person beside him. tommy.

"how mutch sleep you get? none?"

wilbur just nodded.

"I'll just go get techno"

wilbur shook his head

"do you want me to to get techno?"

"NO."wilbur yelled at his younger brother

wilbur watched as Tommy scurried away.
wilbur had scared the living daylights out of his younger brother.

wilbur began to silently cry, tears flooding down his cheeks. he needed to burn shit. just not himself. he picked up a leaf off the floor and got his lighter out. he began lighting it up. watching it burn slowly away. wilbur sat curled up on the chair as it began to rain. he just sat there it was pouring hard with rain. no one would hear his screams. he got up and stood in the middle of the grass. littreally soaking. as thunder erupted it hurt his ears but he didn't want to care. his music had been turned off and his headphones and shit put on the table.he stood there in his shorts and tshirt. he screamed as loud as he could. he needed to let it all out. as expected no one heard him.

he fell onto his knees still screaming. he missed him, he wanted him back. wilbur just ended up breaking down in the rain, at eight in the morning crying. that was until tommy managed to wake up techno. techno and tommy ran down the stairs and to the window to see if their brother was still there.
they ran out the backdoor at the sight of their brother. techno was already dressed and had his shoes on same with tom. they ran out to their brother.wilbur would not budge. they tried everything. they ended up dragging a screaming, crying, shaking wilbur into the house. as tom grabbed wills stuff. wilbur lay curled up into a ball by the backdoor.

techno went to toutch wilbur but..wilbur let out a ear splitting scream.

"wilbur it's me it's okay"

wilbur let out another scream.

by the time of the second scream phil was there.

"he won't let us toutch him dad, we don't know what's happend."

phil sat beside the curled up shivering wilbur.

"wilbur it's me, dad. I'm here it's okay."

phil slowly approached showing wilbur his hands.

this time wilbur let phil toutch him. Phil sat wilbur up wich was quiet easy because will was too skinny for his age. Phil hugged the soaked boy who shiverd and cried in his father's arms.

"it's okay will."

wilbur let out a muffled scream into phils chest.

"shhh it's okay"

Phil rocked him and wilbur back and forth
phil placed his hand on the back of wilburs head. wilbur let out a wobbly scream, this time it was not muffled. he then began to cry harder after, covering his ears with his hands.

wilbur slowly began to calm down once there was a blanket wrapped round his shivering body. his sobs got quieter and quieter until he went silent. it took a total of an hour to get him to calm down. he still lay in phils arms, his face buried into phils chest. Phil had changed wilbur into non-wet clothes and layed his down in his bed covering him up making sure the still shivering boy was warm. shlatt and everyone else was up by then and it was still raining. all of wilburs stuff had been placed in his room. except the lighter and cigarettes that phil had found.

phil was going to be having a talk with wilbur about that.

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very long chapter uuu I was listening to romance is boring on loop whislt writing this-. anyways maybe a chapter tmr if I feel nice, gn!

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lots of luv vienna xx