i won't share you / purinz

the size of a quark

"Wow," says Sakura, "I haven't heard that one before."

They're in Sakura's room, Chaewon sprawled on Sakura's bed and Sakura sitting on the floor with her homework spread out in front of her while Chaewon recounts the events of the past couple of days.

"So does she like you because she likes anyone that looks like you or does she like anyone that looks like you because she likes you?" Sakura asks.

"I don't know," says Chaewon, "Does it matter? They're both slimy."

"It definitely matters," Sakura argues, "One is just having a type. The other is restraining order material."

"I don't want to think about it," Chaewon says quickly, then groans, "But for some reason it's all I can think about."

"Let's make a pros and cons list," Sakura suggests.

"Of Yunjin?"

"Yeah," Sakura tears a piece of paper out of her notebook and writes HUH YUNJIN at the top of the page. She starts with the pros column.

Pros

Hot

Sakura stares at the list for a moment before chewing on the end of her pen, "What else?"

"Maybe this isn't the best way to approach it," says Chaewon.

"Why?" Sakura raises an eyebrow, "Because it requires you to admit that she has good traits?"

"I can admit that she has good traits," Chaewon protests, "I just...I don't know how to say them. She's just Yunjin."

"If you had to describe her," Sakura prods.

"I don't know, she's just weird and, like, kind of embarrassing."

"We're on the pros side," Sakura reminds her.

"I know," Chaewon huffs, "She's weird but it's...kind of cute sometimes."

Sakura adds 'cute' to the list.

"Let's move to cons now," Chaewon quickly suggests. Sakura nods and they add to the list until the paper reads:

Pros

HotCute

Cons

Hooks up exclusively with Chaewon clonesHooks up exclusively with Chaewon clones?!?!?!Broke Joyul's heart (unforgivable)Heartbreaker in generalNo self-awarenessEmotionally unavailable (except with Chae??)Soon a juvenile delinquent?

"I have to say this is not looking good for her," says Sakura, climbing up to sit on the bed with Chaewon so they can study the list together.

Chaewon frowns, "Looking at it this way makes me feel stupid for being conflicted in the first place."

"Hey, you don't need to decide based on this," Sakura gestures to the cons side, "If your heart is telling you to ignore all this stuff because she's hot and cute, then that's what you should do. I wouldn't judge you."

"It's more than that, though," Chaewon insists, "I mean, she is good-looking, but it's also, like, the way she makes me feel. Like, I feel safe when I'm around her. I know she wouldn't let anything hurt me."

A wide smile spreads across Sakura's face and Chaewon shakes her head, "I shouldn't have said anything."

"You like her!" Sakura exclaims, grabbing a pillow to hit Chaewon with, "Oh my god, you really like her. It's even worse than I thought."

"No I don't," Chaewon says, then sighs, "Okay, maybe a little bit. But only the tiniest smidgen. The size of an atom. Not even an atom, a quark."

"Whatever that means," says Sakura, "You have a big fat crush on Huh Yunjin. Admit it."