It had already died.. way before I made that decision: the decision that got me to where and who I am today. "Freedom" was the first word I let out. It has been years, and I have never been so proud of myself like I am today in a very long time. Even though there are things that trigger me from time to time, I now am able to clear my mind to get a powerful help from above that comes to quiet them down. Had I not received this help, I wouldn't have been here today...for the evil thoughts have always been too loud and strong for me to tackle on my own. In the most decent and appropriate way, or should I say in its cleanest version lol... these evil thoughts are a mixture of anger, hatred, exhaustion that got built up and have been with me for so many years.
So.. 'What's the sharpest thing in the world?' if you may ask. I'd say trauma senses... Because when that hits you, it hits hard :)
