Secret Novelty [ON-HOLD]

Chapter 16

//Janella's POV//

"In the depths of human strife, I find my muse,
Where shadows dance, where darkness does infuse.
A tale of trauma's grip on fragile hearts,
Unfairness woven through life's tangled arts.

Behold this world of chaos, cruel and wild,
Where innocence is lost, by fate defiled.
Unto the ones who weep, I cast my rhyme,
To bring solace, with words that chime.

Love, a balm amidst the ceaseless storm,
A whispered hope, a light that keeps us warm.
In fragile hearts, its essence ever lingers,
Unspoken yearnings, the soul's secret singers.

Unveiling thoughts concealed by silent shroud,
In realms where dreams and nightmares are allowed.
Intrusive thoughts, like thunderclouds they gather,
A tormenting symphony, a mind's fierce blather.

Obsessed, compelled to rinse and repeat,
OCD's grip, an unyielding feat.
Each action fraught with anxiety's tear,
Escape elusive, drowning in fear.

Amidst the wreckage, trembling hearts we bear,
PTSD's mark, a burden hard to bear.
Haunted echoes reverberate in dreams,
A shattered soul, stitched with fragile seams.

Yet in this reckoning, resilience found,
Each battle fought, on hardened ground.
Each wound endured, a strength reborn,
From ashes rises, the spirit not torn.

A radiant spirit gleams, untouched by tide,
The power to transform, to dream, abide.
In spite of all, in darkness we shall rise,
To reclaim our voices, to reach the skies."

I was awaken from my slumber upon having flashbacks, uncontrolled mind, kept on reminding me of my past.

I then prepared myself some warm milk, I decided to hang out outside my room's own terrace.

I breathed in, and breathed out. My hands were shaking, unable to reboot everything that just happened. I decided to write my feelings away, hoping that it can help me to ease the tention.

I took a piece of paper and a pen, making sure to filling in all those lines and made sure that everything will be fine.

I looked at the clock, It's 2:45, Oh my!

I have to go back to sleep now before my night sky would say goodbye.

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"Morning, Pa, Ma, and Kuya." I greeted them with coldness in my tone. Lahat sila at napatingin sa akin tila mga nag aalala ang mga mata nila.

It's saturday kasi ngayon. Walang pasok at usually tanghali na ako bumababa. It's 7 am na kasi at paalis palang sila papunta sa mga trabaho nila.

"Bunso, did you had another flashbacks nanaman? Nightmare? Please tell us what we can do to help you." Saad ni kuya Peets sa akin habang unti-unting lumalapit na tila tinitignan ang lagay ko lung ayos lang ba ang gagawin niya bago ako lapitan para yakapin.