Short poems, stories, vents, and my life advice

Worthless

I've been called many things
Special, Gifted
Ret@rded, Autistic
Sociopath, Asshole
It doesn't matter how you say it
It means the same thing
Worthless

I did everything
Baseball basketball
Soccer Dance
Softball Karate
But if I'm not the best at everything
Then I'm just as they say
Worthless

I died in 4th grade
I drowned in books
Death by a thousand paper cuts
Torn from the tests I failed
If I wasn't a good person
I would be a good student
Or I really am as everyone says
Worthless

My words are wrong
They are laced with hatred and malice
They are cut with pieces of her
I can take it like a line
Or blow it into other peoples faces
It is as beautiful as what she corrupted
But it ain't me anymore, once again I'm
Worthless

I want to talk
I want her to understand
Ten minutes she says
That is all I am worth
I am worth enough time
To make a phone call
Apologize, admit to a mistake
None of which happen, which makes me
Worthless