Short poems, stories, vents, and my life advice

To my inner child

To my inner child,

I'm sorry I couldn't protect you.
Im sorry I wasn't there
I'm sorry you died the way you did
No child should die that way
Alone and scared

I wish I could say it was meaningful
I wish you were more ambitious
But I wish you loved yourself more
I wish you would just accept yourself
I wish you wouldn't cry so much
Tears make your eyes ugly

Nobody came to your funeral
Except your mom
She didn't miss you
She laughed at your corpse
and spit on your body as it fell to the ground
She never noticed you were gone.
She never noticed there was nothing
left to break

I'm sorry about her
I'm sorry she hurt you
I'm sorry I told you it was your fault
Even though it was
You were young
And unaware
I'm sorry you had to learn ignorance is bliss
the hard way

I'm sorry I ruined you
I'm sorry I filled you with pills
Until you could breathe
I'm sorry I cut you
Until all the blood was gone.
I'm sorry I soiled you with
Ink and metal
But I know how much
You used to love flowers

I'm sorry life was mean to you
I'm sorry you think it was your fault.
Life sucks
And I'm sorry you know that
You had no business
Singing those songs like
It was never good enough for you

I'm sorry you were alive.
I'm sorry you remembered
The pills were meant to stop that
I'm sorry you can't forget
I'm sorry you were ever here
In the first place
Hell is no place
For children