Saving Bucky

I need to know you

Bucky's POV:

It's a gorgeous day here. Cold, but sunny. I take her for a ride down the coast, showing her some of my favorite spots. She's hugging me so tight as we cruise down the Pacific Coast scenic byway. We made a stop in Seaside and walked around the local shops to stretch our legs.

We head back to the bike, and she pulls out her AirPods, putting one in each of our ears.

Bucky: "What's this for?"

Olivia: "Road tunes! Just...think of me as your passenger Princess who gets to control the radio"

We get back on the road, and head out to the final destination for this ride. Cape Kiwanda. She put on a playlist for us to listen to while we ride. She's laying into my back as we go, holding on to my waist, and I can't help but grip her hand around me, running my thumb across her fingers. Her playlist has set a tone that makes my heart swell. She's got good taste. "Meet me at our spot" comes on, and it couldn't be more perfect. I grip her hand tighter, holding her to me. I sway my bike back and forth. Coming up at our destination, I take my hand from hers and tap her leg and pull off the highway.

Olivia's POV:

He parks the bike, and helps me off. He helps take my helmet off, and then his while I take in the view.

Olivia: "Bucky this is beautiful."

Bucky: "I wasn't sure if you had made it out here, so, I wanted to show you one of my favorite spots".

He smiles, and takes my hand. We walk down to the water. It's quiet here. There really isn't anyone around.

Olivia: "Not a big tourist spot?"

Bucky: "It's too cold here right now for it. No one really here"

Olivia: "hmmm...so we get the place to ourselves"

Bucky: "and I get you all to myself" he grins as he pulls me to him. He gives me a gentle, sweet kiss.

Olivia: "mmmm...do it again"

Bucky laughs, and kisses my forehead. We spent the afternoon just enjoying the scenery. Just being together. We didn't need to talk much. There wasn't an overwhelming need to fill the silence. It was nice....easy. We hiked around the rocks near the water until the sun started to set.

Olivia: "It's getting late. We have a long ride back. Maybe we should head out now?"

Bucky: "Ok doll. You hungry?"

Olivia: "mmhmmm" I reply, giving him a sly smile.

Bucky: "For food, liv" he says laughing

Olivia: "I guess I could eat. You cooking?"

Bucky: "part of the plan"

Olivia: "Then yes"

Bucky: "Good. Let's go"

We walk back to the bike, and he starts to put my helmet on again, but I stop him for a second.

Olivia: "James, will you stay with me tonight?"

Bucky: "How about...you stay with me?"

I nod yes, and give him an excited happy smile. He leans down and kisses my cheek, and finishes putting my helmet back on.

It takes us a few hours to get back, but we finally get to his house. It's a beautiful, 2 story home in the country, not far from the bar. It's got a very industrial aesthetic. It fits him to a T.

Olivia: "Bucky this is beautiful"

Bucky: "Thank you, Olivia. I've put a lot of work into it"

Olivia: "It definitely suits you". He reaches out for my hand, and smiles as he leads me inside. The inside is even more gorgeous then the outside.

Olivia: "Bucky....this is....", I said, glancing around, catching his eyes on me, "this is awful. Burn it and start over" he grins at me.

Bucky: "Sit down and shut up, liv" he points to the barstools in the kitchen. He starts to pour me a glass of wine, and slides it across the bar to me.

Olivia: "Wow, that's normally my job"

Bucky seems nervous, he won't look at me. He has a hard look, and takes out his whiskey bottle and takes a double shot right out of the bottle. He sets the bottle down, and turns to face me again but sees I'm staring at him.

Olivia: "you good?" I asked, laughing.

Bucky: "Liv....I need to get this out before we get to far...so that way if it's too much, i can take you home. But...I need to tell you something?"

Olivia: "You can tell me anything, Bucky".

He takes a deep breathe, and starts to remove his glove on his left hand.

Olivia: "Bucky...." I whisper as I take the seat next to him.

He begins to tell me about his life. Joining the Army, the train, Hydra. He doesn't realize it, but his breath shakes when he talks about it. He shares what he remembers from being the winter soldier. And about S.H.E.L.D and how they may still be looking for him. I didn't even realize I had reached over and grabbed his hand. My attempt to comfort him I guess. After about 2 hours of listening to his story, he finally looks at me for a split second, before glancing back down at the floor.

Bucky: "I was...scared to tell you. Scared you would..."

Olivia: "Run away? James...you aren't getting rid of me that easily"

Bucky: "It doesnt scare you? Freak you out?"

I laughed and replied "psshhh I have my very own bionic man...that's kinda fuckin hot".

He laughed, a genuine heart felt laugh. Fuck that's a beautiful sound. I slid onto his lap, and put my arms around his neck, his arms wrapping around my waist. His eyes still not quite meeting mine, like he was ashamed or embarrassed.

Olivia: "Hey. Eyes up here champ", he finally looked back into my eyes. "Don't hide from me James....never do that."

Bucky: "Liv...this is my...insecurity...my...shame. With how vulnerable you were with me the other night...I knew I needed to do the same. To be honest. And...if this freaks you out or it's too much...I under..."

My lips were on his before he could finish his sentence. My hands gripping at his hair, his arms pulling me as close and tight as he could. His kiss was...different. Not hungry or desperate. It was...relief. Like a weight had been lifted. Like he could breathe. He pulls back and put his hands on my face, just staring into my eyes.

Olivia: "I just...I want to know all of you James." He smiled, tears forming in his eyes. I reached up and gently cupped his cheek. "Every deep....dark dark secret, no matter how depraved you think it may be. I want to know. I want to know you Buck". I wiped a tear from his cheek, and kissed his forehead. "Can we eat now? Im starving!" He laughed, and stood up still holding me.

Bucky: "Thank you" he said, giving me a quick kiss.

Olivia: "for what?"

Bucky: "Being you".

Olivia: "well maybe...don't say that just yet..." I said laughing.

Bucky: "Why not?"

Olivia: "Cause I'm fucking nuts babe". He laughed and put me down, kissing my hand and giving me a more genuine smile than I have ever seen from him, and walked back into the kitchen. "So....food now??"

Bucky: "Yes doll, food"