Alexithymia

The party

Y/N'S POV

I grabbed myself a hot pocket and I put it in the microwave to warm it up. I went upstairs looking for an outfit and decided to wear some pants with a nice shirt. It wasn't anything big so why wear nice things? I went downstairs and started eating my hot pocket when my mom got home, exactly what I needed. "Where are you going?" she asked as I saw she brought in-n-out. "going to Lilas for a project." Either the hot pocket I ate wasn't good or my stomach knew that my mother knew I was lying. "well before you go you have to eat." I hate it. Ever since I starved myself that one week my mom always makes sure I eat

"I ate already" she looked up as if I was lying. "eat or you're not going" I don't know why she acts like she cares so much. She gets so drunk to the point of passing out. I had to bring her into the house by dragging her since my dad and her got into a fight. I know a lot of people don't like the fact their parents are divorced but this family sure does need it sometimes. I grabbed the hamburger and ate some of it. Just one bite and I wanted to throw up.

"Well you can go now," she said as I got up and went to the bathroom. I puked most of it out and grabbed my stuff "Bye Mom I'll be back soon" I ran out the door and waited for five to get there. It felt like hours till I finally saw him

I got in and looked at him "Took you long enough" "What do you expect me to do? Fucking drive as if wanna die?" he said smiling at me "Go fuck yourself I swear" "Only if you watch" he said smirking "Five!! You're so disgusting I swear to God!" I smack him "Let's just go get the stupid drinks and stuff" I say as we leave "Why are you so pretty sweetheart?" he says as he puts his hand on my thigh "I don't know" I say holding his hand "maybe cause hmm cause you just are" he said as I smiled. I mostly had bad days but Five was always there to cheer me up. Can't say the same for him. He never likes talking about his feelings for some reason.

We finally got to a local store, and we started getting drinks. "I'm gonna go look for snacks okay?" I told Five as I went to the snack section. When I had turned the corner I saw my teacher, and I tried so not looking his way. "Y/N? Is that you" he said walking to me. "Mr. Stone, what uhm brings you here?" why did I ask? Gosh I'm so damn stupid "Just came for some snacks and you?" "Getting drinks" Why the fuck did I just say that?

Honestly if you think you're pretty stupid well imagine how stupid I felt telling my teacher from school that I was buying drinks for fuck sake. He looked at me confused "And who's buying it?" shit I got myself caught, and I'm gonna probably go to jail and my whole life is over "Cause if it's with a fake id I don't mind paying." is this man for real right now? See I would usually be happy about it but why him? I only met him yesterday, and I wasn't even close to him. "uhm you don't have to" "But I insist" he said going to the register. I never would have thought I could get an older man to like me. I mean who's male teacher would buy drinks and not be a pedophile? "who the fuck is that?" Five said

Five has always had jealousy issues since we started dating. Never did I think he did but I'm used to it I guess. "A teacher from our school" I said and he looked at me and grabbed the bags "Thank you Mr. Stone" I walked out feeling disgusted. How can Cassie do this without feeling weird?

"you okay?" asked Five "Just drive" I said and he drove to Lilas house. We got there and headed inside "Guess who's here!" Five said as he put the drinks down "You even brought snacks? You're too kind" "You're kind to have us over" I said and I sat down. "Where's Klaus?" "right here with Cassie!" he said as they both walked downstairs. I never really thought about being jealous of Cassie or anyone, but damn did Cassie look really pretty. "Y/N you're here!" She said running to me, and I hugged her "So you guys ready to take a shot?" Lila said "I'm not taking shots today sorry" Five said, and I grabbed him "Come on at least 2" I said, and he agreed "Fine but no more after that" I smiled

See if you knew Five, you would know he had drinking problems. That was probably the only thing I knew about him I'm guessing. After taking a few shots Cassie, was drunk and flirting with some guy she had brought. I go with Lila "Hey so do you know anything about our new teacher for English?" I asked, and she looked at me "Mr. Stone? Uhm well, he just moved here I guess why? Did he do something?"

I looked at everyone as they were talking and looked back at her "Well I saw him at the store when we went to go get drinks. He offered to pay which was weird." "Maybe he was just being nice?" she said shrugging "Well I'm not sure, but he weirded me out" After that Five came up to me "Come dance with me sweetheart" I smiled and went with him. "So are you okay?" he asked. I'm guessing I looked a bit off if he was asking "Yeah I'm fine" I said kissing him "Are you drunk" I asked him since he was all giggling "Maybe a little"

Someone had knocked on the door, and people started coming in. I thought it was a party for just us, but never mind. I looked at Lila and went to her "I thought it was just us" "Yeah change of plans" I turned to go back to Five, but I saw he was drinking like crazy, so I decided to just go back with Lila "so Fives getting drunk" "that's good, let's get you drunk now!" She said as we started taking shots.

After a few shots, I go to the bathroom and puke. Yeah, I liked drinking, but the puking part not so much. I only puked when I eat before, so maybe since I ate the hot pocket it went bad? I walked out, and Five came up to me, and grabbed me by my waist

"Hey Darling" Yeah I could tell he was drunk by just smelling his breath"Hey Five" I said smiling at him. He pinned me to the wall and started kissing my neck "Five, come on not here" "It'll be fine, no one will hear you" He said as he started taking my pants off "Five I said no!" I was practically begging him to stop at this point. "just let me" I pushed him off and ran out into the living room and walked outside. I sometimes think of breaking up with him but can't. It's like we're meant to be? It sounds cheesy I know but he helps me, so I can't leave him.

"You okay?" I turned around and saw Jason Cox. Jason was one of the most popular guys in school. We talked a few times, but never really friend talked you know? "Yeah I'm fine," I said standing up "Did you need something?" I asked looking at him "I saw what happened, and wanted to check on you" I never thought he would be kind enough to do that. "He's just drunk" "Doesn't give the right for him to treat a lady like that" I smiled "How about we walk around the block? Get to know each other" he asked "Sure" Most girls would be jealous if they found out I was walking with Jason. "So is he always like this?" "Only when he gets like super drunk" "Well that's wrong." was he always this polite?

"Well, it's fine don't worry about it" We walked around a little till I saw Five walking up to us. I'm. guessing one of the girls had seen me and Jason walking and told Five. "Why the hell are you out here with him?" "What I can't talk to guys now?" he slapped me "Hey don't slap her man!" men don't think women can't defend themselves sometimes "I'm so scared" Five says sarcastically. I start walking away. "You come back here!" he started following me, and I turned around "Get in the car" He said, and I didn't listen. "Please Y/N?" I stopped, Why did god have to make me so easy to manipulate? There I went getting into the car as he followed me behind and turned the car on.