Through the Years with Nick and Charlie

A week in

Charlie:

     It's Thursday, which means it's been a little over a week since I told Nick that we're gonna be parents, it also means that we are back to our regular lives.
  I just got home from the school and have started my routine, eating half the pantry and watching some show that's on the tv. I have added party planning to my routine because Nick and I have decided to hold a baby shower in January, two months. Nick chose January because he has the least amount of games that month so hopefully, he can get that one day off.
        I feel anxious and worried about it because nick doesn't have a confirmed day off and I only want the baby shower if he's there, he knows that

   It's 7pm now and I've finished some lesson plans and started the guest list for the baby shower, but now I'm making dinner since Nick will be home in an hour or so.
    I finished making a stir fry for dinner and texted Nick to let him know that it'll be ready when he gets home

(7:43)- hey, dinner's ready....drive safe😘

  I normally like to wait for Nick so that we can eat together and have some feeling of normality, but obviously, it's been a little difficult to do that lately. The aroma filling all throughout my house isn't helpful either

    It's a little past 8 now and I start to get impatient so I text him again

(8:13)- are you otw

   I continue to wait for Nick to walk through the door picking at the food in the pot here and there waiting until I can actually fix a bowl.

   It's even later now and I'm starting to worry a little now

(9:02)- can you text me back maybe lol🙃did training go over?!

- also I ate already sorry, we got a bit impatient

     I texted him again until I finally got a text back

Baby❤️

(9:13) - I'm so sorry ...training went over and I had a last minute meeting

-that's ok, I should've been home by now anyway

    I didn't text back I just tried my hardest to stay awake for the next 25 minutes until he gets home.

    Great start to the whole not being alone thing.

   Nick finally walked through the doors at around 9:40 and I sat up from the couch and smiled over at him "hi love" he says walking over to me on the couch. He plopped down beside me wrapping me into hug and then cradling me In his lap. He placed a kiss on my lips and then some on my cheeks "im sorry I was late...and then didn't even tell you" "it's fine Nick, im not new to this" I said with a chuckle but I sense that I made it worse "sorry" I say looking down at my hands "no you're  right, I just wish you weren't" he says and I just smile softly at him and grab his cheeks.
    We sat there for a a couple minutes just holding onto each other until I broke the silence "did you ask about a day off in January" I asked and he just shook his head no. I didn't say anything because I know that there was still time.

Nick:

   I just got home a little bit ago, I was an hour late and I didn't even have the time to let Charlie know that I was going to be.

The admin for my team has perfect timing with going over and making me have an impromptu meeting.
  
Charlie's already worried and so am I about him being left alone and me not not being able to be there for anything and I'm starting off terribly even after the hours I took trying to convince him that we'll be ok

   I promised him that I'll be there for the baby shower, but I don't think he even believes me which I can't blame after today

   I've eaten, taken a shower, and now I'm snuggled up with Charlie on the couch but I can sense a different vibe. I know it's him being semi pissed off with me over today "I'm sorry, I'll really really try to get here on time from now on" I say leaning over to kiss his temple. He looks over at me and does that fake smile and immediately turns back around with no emotion on his face. I know that he won't believe anything that I say about it at this point so I just let it be, hopefully I can show him that I really do mean it tho