DAN
I walk to Wayne, who's quietly sobbing in his room. Is it down on his bed next to him and put an arm around his back, like he always does it. He remains still. In fact, he cries even harder. I think through what Wayne does when I cry. Well, he puts his hand on my back and rubs my back, and he talks to me in a soft voice. So I start gently and slowly rubbing his back. When he cries even more I panic but try to hide it when I say,
" It's going to be okay. " I feel his body shake from sobs under my hand and I panic again. I feel my heart racing and my body trembling. My breath quickens and I try to calm down. I'm losing control. But Wayne still needs comforting. I say, my voice shaky, " I-it's okay, everything is alright." I just wish I would've looked around more when I went into that fucking river. If I saw Ben and Platz were there I would've found another river and would've drowned, as intended. I so hate my fucking life. I'm not even good enough to comfort my friends! Wayne finally stops crying and looks up. Heck, He felt the shaking of my hand. He looks at me and we instantly swap roles as he says,
" Focus on your breathing. In... out... in... out... in... out." I nod and slowly get my breathing straight. The trembling eases and as I calm down a bit more my heart slows to normal. I close my eyes, relieved. When I open them Wayne looks me in the eyes, " Dan, if you have another one of these, call me. And do not. Dare. To drown! Don't you realize that I care about you? Don't you care how I'd feel if my best friend was dead?!" He slaps me gently, but even this hurts very much for my beaten-up head. He says, " I-isn't your uncle's abuse enough? Have you really given up already?!" He looks down, tears in his eyes. Then he says, barely audible, " I'm sorry." I clench my teeth and shout,
" Wayne Sermon, don't you realize that's the problem? You shouldn't care about me! No one should care about a fucking stupid screwup like me! So STOP CARING! If that's what it takes I'll stop being your friend! " I say the last words without thinking, and then I take deep breaths to calm myself.
" Dan..." He says but I interrupt him,
" Just leave me be! I'm fine on my own!"
" Okay, so you're fine home with your uncle? I didn't know that. Okay, you can go now. You're not welcome." Wayne says on an icy tone. I hesitate and he yells, " I said LEAVE!" I wince, open the door, walk out, and shut it. Then I run down the stairs and go out on the front door for the second time that day. I shut it behind me as quick as I can so no one sees my tears. I shouldn't done that. Now he thinks I hate him.
WAYNE
Now he thinks I hate him. I didn't want that. But I guess it's better. He said I should stop caring. I can't. So I'm following in ha steps. I am about to order sleeping pills when I think of Ben and Platz. I have other friends. I don't need to die just because he said to stop caring. Don't obey, I think. I won't obey him, even if he said to stop caring, I won't. Someone knocks on the door. I hesitate. I don't feel in the mood of talking to anyone. Still, I finally say,
" Come in. " Ben walks in, and he instantly asks,
" What was that about? What abusive uncle? Why doesn't he want you to care? " I think about lying. But After all, Dan told me not to care, so I guess that also means don't care about not telling. I still don't want to let him down, but it can do nothing bad if I only tell my friends. So I say,
"Oh, that was just about his abusive uncle." I say as it it would be obvious then sigh and say,
" Yeh, he's got an abusive uncle he lives with. His mothers dead and his dads sick. " Ben seems shocked and there's silence for a few moments. Then I sigh and ask, " Did Platz go home? If no we can play some instruments together." Ben shakes his head and says,
" I'll go get him." As soon as he's gone, I break down to tears.
DAN
As soon as I enter my house I wish that I would have came home sooner, so I wouldn't get so much beaten up. Too late to decide that, my uncle knocks me to the ground with one strong hit and starts kicking and hitting. I am used to it and I don't even wince as his leg hits older wounds. When he finally finishes I go to my room and call Wayne. I don't know if he will take it up. I don't know if I want him to. Don't even know why I'm calling him. Maybe to apologise. Maybe not. I wait. Then Wayne picks it up.
" Dan?" He asks, his voice hoarse.
" Yeah."
" What's wrong?"
" Nothing just the normal, my uncle. " I am about to say something else too, but my uncle appears and hits my arm harder than ever before. I feel a bone break and I can't help hissing from pain. I hear Wayne from the phone,
" What was that?" My uncle answers him,
" Heyo." Then he looks at me and says, " How dare you call your friend?" I don't answer, fear rising in my throat. I hear Wayne shout from the phone,
" WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HIM?!" Neither one of us answer. I grip my arm where he broke it, trying to make the pain less, but it just hurts more. He puts the call down and says,
" Now sleep, don't call your friends." I sigh and lie down in my bed. I close my eyes and try to sleep. I hear my uncle leaving and start typing a message to Wayne,
Everything's wrong. I'm wrong. I'm sorry Wayne, but I'm going. I already got sleeping pills, I take one every night so I can sleep, otherwise the pain is too much. But I'm going to get more than one today. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry. By the time you see this, I'm hopefully dead. I don't even know if I'm going to send this, probably no. But if I will, I just want you to know that I'm done for. This is the end. Goodbye, I hope once I'm gone you'll be happier.
A/N: I've got an almost released new chapter, I don't know if anyone cares for this story, but I just don't want to loose the few people who are following the story because they see this wasn't made just a few hours ago.
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If only you could save me || Imagine Dragons Fanfic
FanfictionDan Reynolds is thirteen when he joins Wayne Sermons school. But he isn't okay. Will someone be able to help him? OH MY I ACTUALLY FINISHED THIS.
