DAN
I'm sitting in school. A day passed since he locked me in the attic and an hour since he let me out again. No one else is in class yet. I'm writing into my notebook, all nerves. What if Wayne blurts something out? Or decided to call the police? Or... the hospital? I hear someone sit down. I don't look up to see who. I just continue writing the song. I hear two more people sit down and I hear Ben and Platz talking. I start listening, wondering if it's me who they're talking about. Ben says,
" You know you're amazing at the drums I think. "
" Not better than you with the bass!"
" No, definitely not better. But Wayne beats us both with the guitar!" I first misunderstand, thinking Wayne, gentle Wayne, hits them with guitars, but then luckily realize they don't mean that. I hear Platz ask Wayne,
" Yeh, he does. Do you think our dream of starting a band will come true, Wayne?" I keep writing, coming to the conclusion they are going to start talking about starting a band so now at I get mentioned, who would want to be in a band with me? Of course they may mention how they shouldn't think of making the band with me... I suddenly become aware of the fact that it is completely silent. I finally look up and see Ben, Platz, and Wayne looking at me from their chairs. Ben asks me,
"Well?"
"Uh sorry what?"
" Would you like to join our band if we make one as our lyricist and vocal-"
" NO. I mean that's not possible... My lyrics are trash and I sound like a... Washing machine." They look at each other and Ben asks,
" What kind of magical washing machine to you have?" Wayne says before I could answer,
" Dan, you sound great. You sound brilliant. And your lyrics are amazing too. Believe me, this one time, believe me." I slightly blush and Platz reads from my notebook,
" Why can't you let go like a bird in the snow-" I abruptly close my notebook, sweat running down my forehead. Fortunately the rest of the class came in and so they don't have time for more questions.
At lunch, I hear Ben whispering,
"Why is he limping?" Platz whispers back,
" I dunno. Wayne?"
"What?" Wayne asks, seemingly not wanting to answer.
" Why's he limping?" They ask at the same time and Wayne says,
" I told you at mines - he hasn't completely recovered yet." They nod and I feel relief. He didn't tell them
" Wayne?" I say, and the three look at me, surprised. Wayne asks,
" Yes, Dan?" I can see he's worried.
" Can we talk, privately?" He nods and says,
"Lead the way." I walk off, not looking back to see if he's following. Soon we arrive at a corner of the hall where I think nobody hears us. I glance at Wayne and ask,
" Wayne?" My voice is very quiet and he asks,
" Yes?" It's clear he's worried.
"I'm so sorry." I say. It's clear he's on edge as he asks,
" What for?" I won't tell him the truth. I won't tell him I already decided how I am going to - now really- commit suicide.
" For everything I've done." I simply say then turn and walk to class. I already finished lunch.
WAYNE
What Dan said makes me on edge. What if he does something stupid again? Or if he knows and his uncle is going to kill him? Strangely enough, he asks as we walk out of school,
"May I go to your's Wayne? Maybe I can practice being a washing machine." I nod then say,
" No washing machine, Dan. " He grins and so I grin too. We reach my house and go to my room. Dan asks me, sitting on the side of my bed,
"May I ask Amazon to bring something here for me?" I am shocked but say,
"Um yes, sure." He takes out his phone and opens Amazon. Then he turns a bit and I can't see his phone anymore. I do catch a little glance and see 'Sleeping'. I grab his phone and check f he put the sleeping pills in the basket yet. No. I close the tab and shoot a concerned look at Dan. He sighs then says,
" I wouldn't have actually bought it..."
" Then why did you open it?"
" To see the, um, information?"
" And why did you want to-"
" JUST IGNORE IT YOU HECK BODY OF CARING!" Dan suddenly shouts and I shrink back. There's an awkward silence between us and then Dan takes out something from my sweatshirt pocket. My phone. Then he turns and walks away, shouting, " MAYBE IF I LEAVE TONIGHT I WONT COME BACK, AND EVEN IF YOU CARE, I DON'T!" He opens my door, leaves, and shuts it. He walks away and I hear the front door opening and closing. I run down the stairs and see my mother standing near the front door,
" If someone is rude to you dear, tell me-"
" Mum I have to go. "
" Why? Where?"
" I think one of my friends is about to commit suicide" I open the door without another word and leave. Maybe I can still see and follow Dan. But no, he's nowhere in sight. I run in the direction in which I know his house is. I run all the way to his house but don't see him anywhere. Maybe he already went in? I stand at the door, waiting.
My wait stops when I get a text from Platz,
Quick go to your house NOW.
I frown then run off. This sure sounded urgent... when I reach my home I quickly open the door and run in. I see four people at the table, Ben, Platz, Dan, and mom. My dads working. I run over and sit down next to them, my gaze on Dan and on Dan only. He's wet, and not just a bit. I don't have to ask what happened. I can guess. Dan either tried to drown himself or went for a swim. And, knowing then, the first one is far more likely. I just keep staring at Dan and then tears spring into my eyes. I have to look away before Dan, or anyone else, sees. No one ever saw me cry before, not even my parents, well not since I was a baby. And now the tears come. I feel warm tears sliding down my cheeks, and I can't take all the peoples' looks on me. I run away and shut myself in my room. There I start crying even more. How can I be a so fucking bad friend, crying in myself instead of comforting my friend?! I cry and cry and cry, until the door opens and Dan steps in.
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If only you could save me || Imagine Dragons Fanfic
Hayran KurguDan Reynolds is thirteen when he joins Wayne Sermons school. But he isn't okay. Will someone be able to help him? OH MY I ACTUALLY FINISHED THIS.
