24 hours

hour 10

4:00 am

my heart was racing

my arms were cold as ice

i couldn't feel my body

my head felt as if someone was repeatedly hitting

me with a hammer

i knew i was dying

except i had been dying even more everyday

see, once you're born, everyday is like a god damn

clock

each day ticks, but it gets slower and slower the

closer to death you become

the very few seconds i was falling, felt like fifteen

minutes

i didn't want to die, not now

not now that i knew someone actually cared for me

he cared about me

i heard him scream as i fell

a powerful scream

one you hear in the horror movies, except there

was no axe murderer or a psycho with a chainsaw

who locks you in a basement

he was terrified, i was terrified

"this is it," i say to myself as i feel the life rush out

of me

fifteen years i've spent awaiting this moment

i was hoping it wouldn't be like this

if i was in this position a few weeks ago, i wouldn't

be so terrified of death

but now i'm not quite sure i want to die anymore

i have someone to live for

i'm scared, what comes after?

i felt him shaking my almost lifeless body

"wake up! don't die on me!"

i moved my hand towards his

i felt a pool of a thick liquid by my head

i looked at my fingers

blood.

i grabbed his hand

he held it so tightly, i lost all feeling in every other

part of my body, except my hand

i felt his grasp for hours it seemed

i felt so happy holding his hand

yet so terrified

was this the end?

"I don't want to die anymore"

"anymore?"

"in a few hours, i was going to"

"don't you dare," he cut me off

"it's okay now, really"

"don't you dare leave me"

"don't lea-"

5:00 am