24 hours

hour 4

10:00 pm

something i haven't done in a while is sit and think

and not cry

i try hard not to cry

because it makes me feel weak

i am not weak

but i must give up for my own good

and others

but probably one of the worst feelings ever is knowing you're alone

and you're going to be alone

until the day you say good riddance to this hell hole

i'm not depressed

just sad

i'm sad about many things

i'm sad i can't wear skinny jeans to school without being called a slut

i'm sad that every friday no one comes on the bus to my house with me

i'm sad i can't get a school lunch without people telling me to starve myself

i'm sad that everything people say about me

i believe

and i have believed them

and i will keep believing them

until tomorrow when i say good riddance to this hell hole

11:00 pm