Summer season of August [Daerin]

Chapter 21

August 04, 2019

The tip of pencil drifts away when I smashes it on the paper. I'm trying so hard to focus and give this dress a best design but I just can't do it, why did I even shift to Hanni's department?

Why are you ruining your life, stupid Haerin? You're supposed to grow here and live your life to its fullest!

"Fuck this..." I mumble as I throw the crumpled piece of paper on the floor.

"Haerin?"

A heavy breath came out my mouth when I heard her voice. I shut my eyes and put my head on the table before I could even feel her touch.

"What's wrong? Did I just hear you curse?" Hanni asked, her hand wraps on my back. "Are you frustrated? You can ask for my help, what's wrong, babe?"

"I wanna sleep..." I said and faked a yawn.

"You haven't done your work and tomorrow will be the due date. Do you want to get low grades?" Hanni asks with the intimidating tone on her voice again, "If you want me to help, you can tell me, unless you want to be alone in fashion department for months." she said that's why I releases a heavy breath. There's a lot of students in fashion department so there's a total of 3 sections. Section 1 is for those who has higher grades. Section 2 is for those average students and it must be expected that the last section is for helpless students.

Now, I'm in section 1 together with Hanni. Aside from I'm not into this course, I couldn't bring myself to like this course too. But I've got no choice....it's hard here. Everything is hard and I only got Hanni. If I came back in Korea bringing the biggest disappointment, I'll just feel ashamed. I need to bear with this.

Hanni picked up the pencil that fell on the floor, "Let me help you. I'll show you-"I lightly hit her hand before she could even hold mine.

"Please...let me be for awhile..." I pleased, but Hanni suddenly slap my face.

"And that's for hitting my hand when I just wanna help you." she said.

I bit my lower lip and stood up, "I didn't even hit it that bad, I just want you to stay the hell-"] wasn't able to continue when Hanni slaps my face for the second time.

"Stay the hell out of your life for you to end up running to me again? You're lucky, Haerin, I'm still here for you." she stated before turning her back from me, "You're almost lucky but you're ungrateful!"

My eyes blink...that's when my tears starts falling one by one. I bite my lip as I hear my own heartbeat. I couldn't hear anything except of that and there's no running thought in my mind.

I'm...I'm completely...I don't know...how do you explain this feeling?

How come you're still ungrateful after all that she have done for you, Haerin.

Now go, chase Hanni.

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