Summer season of August [Daerin]

Chapter 37

August 05, 2021

"What was your dream?" Danielle asks as she puts on the beanie that Jiwon gave her.

"When I was a kid?" I looks up the sky trying to prepare my speech, "I wanted to have a tattoo because it looks cool. I wanted to dedicate my life in arts. I wanted to be a little rockstar" i got up together with a rockstar handsign up in the air.

"You can still be a little rockstar tho. Your height will never fail you." Danielle disses which made me glare at her. She suddenly laugh that's why my sharp eyes slowly turned soft. I'm slowly melting down. My world stopped. I'm staring at her and I can freely see her cheeky laugh.

"Don't give up on your dreams, little rockstar." Danielle said.

I couldn't help but to look away just so I could avoid her eyes. I can't. I will never ever have that dreams anymore. Haneul had it all, it's fine.

"Haerin-ah..."

I hummed in return and slowly sits back beside her again.

"It's never too late to paint your sky with the colors of your like this time. I'd be happy to know that you're living under the color of your sky that you'd love." Danielle stated while looking at the sunset.

"y'know what? I was kinda afraid of ocean before and we haven't had the chance to go to the beach together," I said, scratching the topic about that sky. "Actually, we were supposed to but I wasn't brave enough. I think I can go to the beach and watch the horizon with you now." I looks at Danielle who's eyes were glued on the sunset. She look so pretty that it's giving me butterflies.

"It's summer of August, what a good month to spend some time in the beach. Sadly, I don't like bringing someone in a place they're afraid to be in." she responded that's why I nodded before putting my chin over my knees.

"I'm brave now anyway..." I said with a low tone.

"Haerin..."

I smiled because of the thought of her calling me by my name over and over again, "What's wrong?" I curiously asked, trying to hide the smile on my face.

"I remember Haneul showing me your sketchbook. It was...it was full of me." She mumbled. which made my eyes widen.

Then why?

Didn't you notice, Haneul?

How? Why did you fall in love with her in the very first place? Should you be feeling betrayed by now or should it be me feeling that way? You knew from the beginning, I know it.

"Haerin-ah...why did you leave?"

"If I didn't, is it gonna be me? Am I gonna be in her place. Am I gonna be your very own rockstar by now?" I asked. I don't know if it's too late for
me to notice that a single tear fell from my eye already.

Why am I feeling insecure. Why am I feeling this way? I feel so devastated.

My head falls down when Danielle's hand patted my head, "Cry, that's alright..." She mumbled.

"Perhaps, you knew I was in love with you in the very first place. You both know..." I whispered with my eyes shut.

"If that one soul only knew. Then there would be no need for her to wonder why the other soul kept wandering around. Then there would be no need for her to wonder why that other soul is taking so long to get back in their place." She stated that's why I gritted my teeth.

Without a word, I jumped into her and grabbed her collar. "Can you please stop telling me something like that?! Why can't you tell me something without making me think critically about the real meaning of your words?!" exclaimed.