Solace.

Chapter 43

Even though she was not getting any pleasant response from Agastya, but still she was determined to make amends. The pain and confusions of these 8 month weren't going to end in Just one day. She has to talk to him even though it'll lead her to face humiliation.

After coming out of the kitchen, Meera gave the tray to one of the helpers and tol her to serve it to the people present in hall. While, she wasn't getting how to contact Agastya. Nevertheless, she texted him once again.

But no reply. Few minutes passed but still no reply. It was already 8.
But they had time. Moreover Malhotras were gonna stay a bit late. So Meera was just in a need of opportunity to find Agastya alone.

After few times, everyone was called for the dinner. Meera denied saying she wasn't hungry. Rather she waited in kitchen. Beacuse the washbasin was near the kitchen and the way from kitchen was quite close to her room. So she wa sjust waiting for Agastya to finish his dinner and come here.

And after few minutes, Agastya got up from the table and came to near to washbasin. As wiped his hand in the towel placed there, she spotted Meera near it. He again, was going to ignore it, when she took out his phone from his kurta's pocket and went towards her room.

And he didn't understand what happen, and when he did, anger overpowered him and he went towards her furiously and ended be coming in he room. As he entered Meera put his phone on the bed and closed the door, on finding only him and her in that room.

"What the hell was that? How you dare to do that?" Agastya said, while Meera rolled her eyes, enough of his this ignorant treatment.

"I wanted to talk. And you were ignoring me. So." Meera said, crossing her hand against her chest in criss cross manner.

"So, you'll pull this kind of childish treatment? I'm these 8 months too, you've not come out of your convenient attitude, right?" Agastya said looking at her. While this triggered her, because this was false. Not for a moment she has forgotten him. Not even now.

"Just shutup. I was at fault that's why I'm taking your this humiliation. " she said.

"Oh, so you now want a Princess treatment? " He asked sarcasticly.

While she paused and looked at him for atleast two minutes, causing him to release a sigh.

" You hate me, right?" She asked looking at him, in a very soft tone and he looked at her Inna side view with his hands rested on his waist. He has closed his eyes and turned sideways but on her this question he gave her a sideview and said.

"You think so?"

"Yes. May be." She whispered.

While he sat down in the bed tiredly and she on the sofa . Loking at her fidgeting hands she continued.

"I know I've unknowingly caused you so much hurt, pain and betrayal. I know. And I fear. I fear about my complex and flipped nature on which I've no control. It's my family only, with whom I'm so much consistent and closed. Otherwise all those people who have ever came close to me, I've made them go away by myself. You're now exception afterall."
She said, and looked at him who was looking at her. She kicked her lip, in nervousness and continued again.

"Sorry. I'm so so sorry. I've been living in this regret and guilt since 8 months. And I'm not selfish Agastya, neither i behave according to my convenience. I'm not selfish. How I've lived those 8th months only I know. I don't wanna go back to those things, but i need to clear.
I've not used you. I had not given you false hopes. But i accept I'm very much career oriented person who doesn't know how to create a balance between professional and personal life. I am sorry. But you know me. You've spent around 5 to 6 months with me. I can be anything, but never a selfish, convenient and careless person. " she said and released a deep sigh.

And for a few seconds, silence prevailed in the room. Agastya knew she wasn't like that. She is at fault. But he can't keep up with this ignorant behaviour. He can't see her fallen face. But today, he was expecting her to say something more. To let me know more.

"Is anything else?" He asked to which she nodded, in a no. But her heart wanted to say something more. She wasn't sure when she is going to meet him again. After a week she had to return back to States, which she wasn't willing so. And just after a week it was his birthday which she doesn't wanted to ruin by confessing to him. She feared that he might take it as her convenient and selfish act.
So all she has is NOW !

As he nodded and turned to leave the room, her voice echoed in the room.

"That day, you weren't the only one experiencing that feeling, Agastya " she whispered and he stopped. He stopped and slowly turned to her, while she looked into his eyes, without withdrawing them this time and took a deep sigh and continued.

"Though I wasn't ready. I was willing to move out. And God knows what had forced me into this. But this wasn't true that,  only you were there who was ready to give commitments.
Who had fallen. Agastya. " Meera said, indirectly, expressing her piled up feelings while his heart skipped a beat.
He looked at her only to find her eyes, filled with so many emotions.

"Why you didn't tell me?" He whispered

"To be again called as selfish and convenient person?" She replied showing the possibility of the judgment she could've get if she would have, confessed.